These last few days have been rather tense as I struggle (yet again lol) to "Let go and Let God." I'd been praying for some kind of sign of hope to come to pass.

Something.

Anything.

Even if that means letting go of all the desires held within my heart and soul.

I know to hope and trust in God, (not in what He can bring to pass for me) but simply in Whom He is:

How great and wonderful and powerful He is, and yet how Kind and gentle and tender and Loving He is as well...

and yet still my heart yearns, and my soul (Soul = Your mind, will and emotions) is attacked with the same ol' darts of concern, worry, and needless fretting. All of which I know I can control, but still seem to overtake me, or at least rob my days of some precious forms of peace snuggled in there for me to find. So as I have been struggling with different concerns and in all different ways and levels, and have been quietly requesting for some sign, to let go or retain the hopes deep within my heart, I receive an ecard today from a dear sister-in-Christ today, and this was written inside, I qoute verbatim:

Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health
and that all may go well with you, even as your soul
is getting along well." 3John 1:2
Kristy~
I came across this verse and thought that it was
written just for you!! I know that I cannot
understand what you are going through, but I can
meet you in prayer. I'm so amazed by your
willingness to be volurnable, yet your resiliance to
be faithful to the Lord, even through your human
battles. It has become so obvious that your
strenght comes from your faith and hope in our
Father. I love you and will keep you and Joe lifted
up in prayer through these next couple of months
or however long it takes.
Exodus 15:26 "...for I am the Lord who heals you."

*laughs* I am all teary eyeed again as I write it here lol. The bolded emphasis is mine, because these were the areas that ministered to my heart the most. It was these words that jumped out and hugged my heart, and to God's Grace, have yet to let go. What perfect verses...*sigh*...

reassurance...and hope...falling down as gentle tender rain...

To my dear friend, you know who you are...thank you! My heart is touched on so many levels...that God answered my prayer...that He answered through you, through your sacrifice to meet me in the valley, knee to knee with me...my heart overflows that an omnicient, powerful God would die for me, would meet me in the midst of trials, would breathe His word into being, and then send encouragement to speak those words again, and yet again...

that He cares so very much still baffles me...

that you have cared so very much...truly, "no greater love is there than this, that one would lay down his life for his brother..."...Laboring in prayer is a sacrifice, I believe, equivilant to "laying down" your life...and you have done this, not just now, but through this whole thing and I thank you from the depths of my heart...how grateful I am God will reward in the heavenlies what all my lightweight words of thanks can not attain here on earth.

(((hugs))) to you, and to everyone whom has labored in prayer with us. God has been so generous, sending not just one precious prayer-warrior, but handfulls! I know you are there and you've prayed unwaivering...patiently and fervently filled with the True Love of Christ...thank you so very much! For holding us so very close, for becoming God's arms out stretched to us, literally, in the spoken word and in the silent whispered prayers from your hearts. Our gratefulness abounds!

...oh Father, precious Father... to know I have done nothing to deserve Your outpouring of comfort and reassurance...nothing at all, and yet here it is enveloping me... how great is Your love to cover...yes, how Great is Your love!