Jun. 25, 2006 - I had a horrible night
I had a horrible night. My husband is working 3rd shift this week. One of the guys at work is on vacation and they asked him if he would like to take the shift. He has worked it before and loves it. It's just him and one technician so they can play any kind of music they want.
Anway, I didn't sleep very well. I never do when he is not here. I made sure all the doors and windows were locked and left some lights on all night. He likes me to do that when he is gone. But I just laid there forever.....staring at the ceiling....thinking.
Life around here has been pretty hard lately. Boy satan knows just where to push the buttons. I love my husband very much and I am sure, as Christians, satan doesn't want us to be happy and wants our marriage to fail. But, even though I know what will never happen, he pushes and pushes and pushes.
I laid there last night thinking of all the times I felt my husband has not been supportive. And where did that get me? Just mad!!! After a while I stopped and thought, "What am I doing?" I know it was satan speaking those bad thoughts about my husband. Once I realized that I began to pray that God would remind me of all the wonderful things my husband has done. It's amazing how eveything changes when you ask for help.
My husband has been working a lot lately. He has a full time job at a hospital and then works part time at another one. We recently took a course called, "Financial Peace University" by Dave Ramsey. It was one of the most amazing, eye-opening experience of our lives. We have felt very convicted to get out of debt. We accumilated a lot of debt while my husband was in graduate school. We no longer own any credit cards and all of my husbands hard work has helped pay extra on student loans and house payments. So I konw when he is away all the time it is to the betterment of our finances. But my son has changed a lot lately. He hits all the time and his mouth is horrible, and he is only 3. I wish my husband was home more to help me deal with it.
We had out bible study group last night and we all decided afetwards to go to the drive-in to see cars. It was so much fun. My kids have never been to a drive-in and I have only been once. It's just around the corner. I don't know why we don't go more. The kids had a good time and it was fun to do things with other people.
I hop everyone has had a good weekend. Time to start back into our boring week!
