I have found that it is exhausting being poor. We have only officially been poor for 2 mts and I am already tired. You have to think through everything, decide which bills really need to be paid and which can wait. My frugal grocery budget is now bare bones. It has been really hard.

On top of just managing money it is hard emotionally. Mentally I am exhausted. Then we have to deal with my husbands boss's comments. He said that my honeys family choices have put us into this situation. Mind you his boss without any warning took everyones salary away and lowered commission pay. I am sure he had nothing to do with this situation. (said in jest)

So his boss said to all of my honeys colleages that we shouldn't have this many kids, he laughed about it and the fact that we have talked about having more. He laughed that I don't have a job outside of the home, he lauged that we homeschool our children, he laughed that we give our time to our church. He basically laughed at all of our choices. He said my husband was delusional.

His words have hurt us so much. This man makes so much money, him and his wife have 1 child and they will have no more. They sent that child to school at 1 yr old. His wife went back to work and shops on her time off. They have 2 nannies. He is an ungodly man who has had so many affairs I can't even begin to know how many. I am wondering if his wife and one child feel the same kind of love, respect, admiration, and security that me and my kids get from my very wise husband.

I just want to publically thank my honey for loving me. For sacrificing for our family, for allowing me to answer the call on my life to educate our children. For modelling a Godly example for all of us. For working hard and often more than one job, sometimes 3. For loving our Lord first and foremost, and then letting that love overflow onto us. I think you are one of the wisest, hard working family men I know. I love you!!! No matter what the world is saying I know I am proud of you and so is your Father in Heaven.

The Lord will continue to provide, I know this because He promised too. I also know we will come out on the other side stronger and still together. Right now we are praying that the Lord will provide another job so my honey can leave this one. Please pray with us.

Blessings,

Andrea