I am ever reminded (daily) that I need to have this meek and quiet spirit. Personality wise I am neither meek nor quiet...I am rather loud and well loud. So I always though this was something that wouldnt fit me. I have learned however that this is a meek and quiet  SPIRIT! God is good b/c he created my personality one way but has lead my spirit in a different direction.

It is so obvious in my life that this spirit needs work. My children teach me every day that I have this need. When I have to ask over and over for something to be done and I start to get mad...reminder. When they are dawdleing, on purpose, over schoolwork...reminder; When they are just plain disobediant I have a choice to either train with a smile and a gentle heart or to get REALLY mad and start yelling.

Now, I tend to do the yelling part that is what comes naturally to me, and they listen when I yell. But is that really what I want to instill in my childrens hearts. Do I want them to yell when they need someone to listen to them, do I want them to feel like being taught or trained something always ends up in yelling and tears. NO!!!  I want to teach and train with a smile on my face, rejoicing that the Lord gave me 4 beautiful children to rear up. I need to remember that they are my high calling and that they deserve to have a mommy that loves them and speaks in a kindly manner toward them. That will stop what she is doing and train them in the way that is right.

I have found that this has great rewards. I may have to stop and take longer to teach but in the long run they wont need the training again or as often. I have also found that if I get down to their level and speak into their eyes with a smile on my face they listen ( I dont even have to yell).

So God is good and faithful and ever changing my yucky heart. Me and the family are happy for that. I have loved the last few weeks spending lots of time with the Lord while I recover from my accident. He has been so lovely to me and I am just rejoicing that I have such a Savior.

I will share later all the Scripture he has blessed me with but this is just my thoughts for now.

Blessings,

Andrea