Yep loading up All 4 littles (Alona4, Ayashe2.5, Amaya1.5 and Nathan4mo.)  My hair is ratty...like um....really bad....si I have to decide real quick now what to do with it and some decent clothes, then all 4 kids dresed, spare clothes , sippies, bottles, wipes, diapers, and make sure the truck has the carseats all in...and making room for Chenoa14 and our freinds 3 daughters to get in after Their study group.....wow...we have 9 seats with belts and fill them all up.   Wehew wish me luck, and I am praying to have a good fun park trip...sometimes its not as much fun.....I pray I can make it fun! 

Have a great day!

This is it.  The big juncture, where I decide which way this all goes.  Do I submit to my compulsions and start a whole new blog, and have no perserverance to make this one continue..... It consumes me....deciding what we are supposed to be doing, how irresponsible me became super mom, and dancing with my own desires of where I want their education to go is, litterally CONSUMING me.  I spent like 40 hours this week researching curriculum, reading like all 6000 blogs on here...um.....twice....scouring links, testimonials, and occasionally accidentally veering off on pop ups on whether Brittney is pregnant again or fat....hmmmm....I know how I came to who I am, but now its time to put it all together.  So I ordered My Fathers World curriculum for my advanced gung ho 4 year old.  I also ordered the Lauri toddler and preschool toys, for my almost 2, and almost 3 year olds...and I guess the 4 month old will come up fast.  So now I have a 4 year plan.....I know.....thats impossible....Ill find a million things before then to change in the choices, but....for a later laugh if nothing else, heres "my plan". I already own weaver interlock, horizon ath and phonics, and 100 easy lessons....plus a bunch of wal-mart workbooks and a few bible based coloring books.  Plus the MFW coming in the mail.

I know this sounds so complex and like too much for these tiny babes, its crazy huh....Heres the thing tho...they crave it, they beg for it, they demand it, and if I dont keep structured things going on for them they bounce off the walls.  Alona (4) cries for "school" and wont be dumbed down.  If I hand her some redundant worksheet shes done in like 2.3 seconds.  Thats not even enought time to put creamer in the coffee, let alone change the baby or make a pb&j for another one......Nope shes done....soooo I have to pay attention.  I have to like totally engage her to buy even a moment of silence...shes so inquisitive, no bear bones teaching allowed here.  In her eyes, I think shes saying, that if I cant teach her ALL ABOUT something dont bring it up and tease her.  She wants to literally research at 4.....and Im so not worried about letting her do all this stuff.  I worry if I can keep up with her .....Funny Ayashe(almost 3) is her opposite....non verbal, hands on learner, temper, AND NO DESIRE for play bookwork.  Alona was the workbook queen by 2, lol.  Ashe prefers to use pencils as weapons vs. writing utensil and Amaya, oh, Amaya(almost 2) She just wants to do exactly what her sisters are doing.  Mimics them to the end...potty traing like a trooper, and always getting picked on.  Wow, what is Nathan(4mo.) gonna be in for. 

Work on Weaver Interlock Until August

100 easy lessons

Horizons K math....will go SLOW!(shes faster with letters than nubers)

LOTS of unstructured paint, scissors, glue, blocks, magnets ,etc

try to add some physical activity outside

AUGUST!!!Alona will be 5, Ayashe 3.5, Amaya 2.5, Nathan 1

Switch to MFW K

finish 100 easy lessons or check into eplode the code readyness books.

start some spanish...like rosetta stone(low key, pictures)We live on the border so hearing it daily is common....rosetta stone it geared to daily life vs. travel.

Switch to Math U See to suppliment the horizons K we are creeping thru now

Start organized sport once a week(dance, soccer, T-ball, not sure)

Following yearAlona Will be 6, ashe 4.5  Amaya  3.5  Nathan.will be 2....

MFW 1st grade

Either Horizons or Math U See or both

More explode the code and lots of reading

Following Year Alona 7 Ashe 5.5 Amaya 4.5, Nathan 3

ONE FULL YEAR PRARIE PRIMER

(like a year off from curriculum based school while I give the girls the adventure of Laura Ingalls Wilder before I hit my ultimate goal of using a multi grade one room schoolhouse approach for all of them with Either Weaver 1, or MFW ECC.  Then into the cycles of that program and whatever math and LA we have found best for each by the...like reuse what we can for the littler ones.)

This is how I finally after like a month of obsessing, see my ultimate goals of using the unit studies I can teach all grades at once happening.  Its hard to figure out how to get them all up to the 2nd grade point or so, before you can start that approach.  Yikes huh...I never realized what an art parenting is, or how heavily a topic like curiculum can CONSUME me.  I am feeling the groove of things coming into the day though.  My kitchen table is the heart of everything...school ,food, work, and games all on this one Oak Table...hmmm....bet the kids remember its texture and smell and feel forever eh?  well tomorrow I am on my knees ...I want to prayerfully dive into my day.  Now I have made my decisions, I am seeking clarity and wisdom and strength in executing my plans.  Oh yeah, I promised a trip to the park 20 minutes away.  so theres 2 hours or more plus the hour it takes me to wash dress and load up the crew.  More tomorrow.

Heres another day.  Partially clouded with uncertainty, but definately on a path.  I have done little to none of the formal schooling I crave to do...But me and the little ones have been having fun.  Impromptu projects, lotsa drawing, and maybe later Ill read to them.  Some of my husbands family from another reservation in Minnesota were here.  Their reservation is huge...ours tiny.  was neat to share a slice of our day.  She confided to me she wished to have homeschooled...dreamed of it but didnt.  Life is still hard where she lives.  My life is so easy.  I dont have to work..or worry about money for curriculums or anything for that matter.  I been having a blasrt with any hometime I get.  Life has had me running around more than I care to...but hey the kids have been great.  I love being with them. I am still online too much.  I read blogs compulsively, to learn from other women how they do it.  I do give them alot of space to just play..on their own terms when Im bogging tho.  They have all kinds of weird games amongst themselves...a language their own I dont get, haha.  Ok, baby is sad...kids are boggery nosed....time for a lil structure here on the Hill.  Later friends.

This is a good sign Im here to stay.  Although I have not posted, I have been reading like a fiend.  Its odd how much all you bloggers have changed my world, and changed my childrens world.  I have in one week of silently being here, laughed, teared up, been amazed, confused, angered, and MOSTLY inspired.  I even have my first mutual blog friend....Thanks Marsha.....Your family fills me with hope.  I have winded through so many links and to so many pages I get lost.  I have so many bookmarks of peoples lives to revisit.  10 years ago, this whole internet support thing was not like this.  People like you were far and few between, and there was no way to find them on a coffee break between poo diapers and fingerpainting.  God works in mysterious ways, and being the chamelion I am, surrounding myself with people like you is my path to keeping my heart pure inspired and educated.  Although if theres a negative its this.  As I peer into the windows of your lives, through your generous blogging....I want to do all that I see...So I think I am beginning like 20 things in my head.  I bought weaver interlock...and Horizon k math and phonics.  I also have 100 easy lessons, and countless walmart books.   I have become a curriculum junkie.   I get so freaky excited reading about what everyone is doing...lapbooking, unit studies, etc.  I bought Interlock for one reason...I prayed on it and I told God, Weaver was too "over the top fanatical" for a relatively new christian.  God answered me in so many ways so quick...it was not gentle.  I was forced to show my faith an jump in head first.  God wants me to learn his word along side my children.  I will be humbled, to be reading their memory verses with virgin eyes and learning too.  God said.....simply, in my life..if weaver is over the top fanatical for e, I was not honest when I gave my entire life to him.  Like I was saying yes god come in my life, but surely dont make me look like a freak.  Sigh...I need to take a reality break and clean house.  While  I have spent this time here, my house has taken a spin towards chaos again.  Its soooo funny.  I read literally for hours while I let my kids run with the wolves.....its all gonna come together in the end though.  Give me the tools, teach me how to use them, then give me the stregnth to put them to work...Thank You all.......

Well, I know this scenario all too well.  Its the first blog...either it will be the only blog or the beginning of a huge part of my life.  Black or white...no grey area for me.  Lets hope this outlet and all these amazing strong Christian women to look up to , and the power of my new relationship with Jesus Christ...will help me find my way.  I kniow I am heading for unit studies, and having purchased Weaver Interlock, and Horizons Math and reading, I am only being held back by my own selfish desired, my confusion, and my lack of control over my life.  I know the place to start is on my knees in prayer.  I know I have been looking in the wrong direction, an I know I need to focus, and put GOD first, and my children.  I need to control my appetite, increase my excercise, and quit with my negative habits.  I am afraid to fail at this because it is truly my heart.  Tomorrow, the 21st day of February, I want to begin anew.  Excercise, Prayer, School, Clean House, Time outside for the girls...its a lot to bite off but this needs to be a toal overhaul, and I pray it will create a forward momentum. 

Incase anyone actually reads this, and wonders....I have 7 children 2 highschool age step kids, a 13 y/o and then my four in a row...4,2,1, and 3mo.  i will be doing Pre-K and its gona be hard....My kids get so wild all day...the 1yo and baby are hard to deal with when I am trying to hs.....sigh, well thats enough for now, and a toast for tomorrow.