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Journeying...By Grace Alone
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Steven Curtis Chapman...has me boo-hooing! (Adoption)
I am sitting here with tears streaming down my cheeks listening to this song:
Warning: If you have a heart for adoption, this song will do you in! It just might make you want to run out and adopt as many kids as you can fit into your home! :-)
Lyrics to New, Original Songs on "All I Really Want for Christmas"
by Steven Curtis Chapman (2005 Sparrow Records, EMI CMG)
All I really Want (Title song track from album "All I Really Want for Christmas"
Well, I don't know if you remember me or not
I'm one of the kids they brought in from the home
I was the red-haired boy in an old, green flannel shirt
You may not have seen me, I was standing off alone
I didn't come and talk to you 'cause that's never worked before
And you'll probably never see this letter, anyway
But just in case there's something you can do to help me out
I'll ask you one more time
All I really want for Christmas is someone to tuck me in
A shoulder to cry on if I lose, shoulders to ride on if I win
There's so much I could ask for, but there's just one thing I need
All I really want for Christmas is a family
Well, I guess I should go ahead and tell you now
If it's really true about that list you have
Somehow I always seem to end up in a fight
But I'm really trying hard not to be bad
But maybe if I had a brother or a dad to wrestle with
Maybe they could teach me how to get along
And from everything I've heard, it sounds like the greatest gift on earth
Would be a mom
All I want for Christmas is someone who'll be here
To sing me happy birthday for the next 100 years
And It's okay if they're not perfect or even if they're a little broken
That's alright, 'Cause so am I
Well, I guess I should go, it's almost time for bed
Maybe next time I write you I'll be at home
`Cause all I really want for Christmas is someone to tuck me in
Tell me I'll never be alone, someone whose love will never end
Of all that I could ask for, well, there's just one thing I need
All I really want for Christmas is a family
I am so blessed to have Joshua home with us this Christmas! I am so happy that God has placed us all together, that Joshua is out of the foster care system and has a forever home here with us, although I think that we are the ones who got the best end of the deal! :-) He is FABULOUS. It is just overwhelming and heartbreaking when you think about all the other kids out there...waiting, waiting for their new forever home, a mom and a dad. There are so many, right in your own state! You don't have to travel all the way to China or Russia, or Guatemala. If you don't have thousands of dollars it's okay, it is FREE to adopt a child though your state's foster care system, and if they have special needs or are part of a sibling group you can usually qualify for subsidy money to help out with all the expenses of raising another child/children. In our state all children who qualify as "special needs"; which is any child with medical special needs, a sibling group, a minority child over the age of 2, or a caucasion child over the age of 7, automatically get FREE college tuition at any public state college! There is so much help if you need it, there are so many children who need a family to love them...
Okay, I'll stop now! I told you, it did me in!
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Monday, November 21, 2005
Still a possibility?
 
Our agency caseworker was here the other day to see Joshua, and fill out more paperwork. While we were talking, Hubby and I were totally taken by surprise when she asked us if we would still be interested in William! He has not had any other families that are interested in him yet, and his caseworker at CPS will not be deciding anything on him until January, but we could still be a possibility for him. I mean it, we were SHOCKED, we didn't think after they made us choose between the boys that there would be any possible way that they would consider us later on. I also thought that Will would be adopted already, I cannot even fathom why they haven't placed him yet! It is far from being in stone; it was, so far just a passing comment. I am praying for God's will to take place though, it would just be so amazing if it really happened.
I am sure that we won't hear anything more about it until January, but if you could pray for us and for William, I would be so grateful...
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Monday, October 31, 2005
An update...of sorts :-)
Because I just don't have a lot of extra time right now while getting adjusted to having a sweet, wonderful toddler right now; I am posting something I wrote to the people of the Angelman's list-serve that I joined. It is a group for paren't of children with Angelman's Syndrome, a big group that has tons of wonderful experience to offer. Anyhow, this has a lot of info about Joshua that I have been wanting to share here, but just haven't done it yet.
Hello everyone, I have been sort of "listening in" to y'all for the past few days, and thought it time to introduce our family to you.
My name Adrienne and my hubby is Kevin, we have a daughter who will be 13 on Friday, and only a week ago Saturday we brought home Joshua Paul to join our family. Joshua is going to be 2 on January the 20th and he has a clinical diagnosis of Angelman's Syndrome. We have adopted him through our state's (Texas) foster care system. He was taken at birth from his birth mother because she was "mentally retarded" and had already had two children taken from her because she just couldn't care for them properly, although she tried, she just couldn't do it, and his father died of diabetic complications before he was born.
We first saw Joshua on the TARE website, that is the Texas Adoption Resource Exchange, it's where they post pictures of kid's who are up for adoption, and I just fell in love with him right away. We submitted our homestudy and were chosen to be his forever family. They chose us because I have a nephew named Eli who is undiagnosed but has very similar things to Joshua, so we already have experience with special kids. :-) So I can say that Eli helped us to get our son! They sent us his files and that's when we found out about the Angleman's diagnosis. So the research began....I was given the name of Teresa J by a friend and she e-mailed me and was so kind and answered some of my questions. Well...we just knew that Joshua was meant to be a part of our family!
It has only been a little over a week, but already I am head over heels IN LOVE with our little guy!!!! It just feels right, and I know that God meant him for our family all along. He is a joy to be around, and I already don't know what I would do without him, I feel SO blessed to have been chosen to be his Mommy and Daddy and sister feel the same way.
In was with a wonderful foster family near Austin, Texas and got lots of love while he was there, I am so grateful to them for caring for my son the way that they did. He seems to be bonding very well with our family, like I said it's as if he is just meant to be here. :-)
The foster family didn't think it would be hard for him to transition to a new home, he didn't SEEM to mind leaving with us, but I believe that it did affect him in ways that just aren't seen. His tummy was upset, reflux that he had not had a problem with in a very long time reappeared, so now he is on Zantac for time and then we'll see how he is. He does seem to have more stranger anxiety than they thought that he had, he wants me back after someone else takes him from me, and it a lot quieter around new people than normal. He usually makes a lot of happy sounds. He seems to be getting more and more comfortable here every single day, and I think he feels very safe with us now.
Some things we've learned about him:
He only eats mushy food so far, nothing that has to be chewed.
He sleeps very well, goes down by himself at 10:00 and doesn't wake up until 9:00 in the morning, and takes an hour to two hour nap during the day.
He mouths everything, grinds his teeth if not chewing on something else.
Loves bath time!
Has an awesome sense of humor!
It's exhausting dressing him, I feel as if I have run a mile after his bath and putting on his diaper and jammies.
He hated brushing his teeth, his foster mom would only attempt it every other day. We since have gotten him and electric toothbrush, and he plays with a Bumble ball during the day and the input from that has already helped so much, it did take two of us to brush his teeth and now he willingly opens his mouth for the electric toothbrush!
He loves shopping, but not too long.
He gets pretty fussy whenever his schedule is too disrupted, poor guy has entered the most non-scheduled family, so we are working hard to accomodate him!! :-)
When he first came to us, he played for very long periods of time by himself with toys, and did the same as his foster home, but now...I don't know if we just play with him too much, or that's he getting more bonded, but when I leave the room he really fusses! I hope it's because he is bonding well! :-)
Well, that's probably more than any of y'all wanted to know. :-) I am honored to be a part of your group and, I am so blessed to have my own Angel. I hope to learn a lot to be able to help him be the very best that he can be! I love reading all of the posts, what great kids you all have!
Blessings,
Adrienne
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
What an angel...
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Almost there...!!
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Big changes...
We were told by our caseworker today that both boy's caseworker's want us to only take one of them. Because we had to do it, we made a choice.
We chose Johnny Joe (aka Joshua).
I am sure none of you will be as shocked about it as we are, we would much rather have both of the boys, but that doesn't seem to be God's plan. You may be surprised that we chose Joshua, since we have never met him. We have cuddled William and played with him and bonded with him, and it's so hard to know that he won't be ours, but when we think of who we think from the beginning that God wanted for us to have...it's Joshua. William is so sweet and and his medical needs seem to be almost non-existent from how they thought he would be. The neurologist even released him at the last visit because he is on target with everything! Joshua on the other hand, is very delayed and on paper looks pretty scary to most people. He is the one who would have the hardest time finding a family, we are the family that is used to what he is like because he is just like my nephew Eli, and he doesn't scare us. Each time I have been with Eli in the past couple of weeks, I just can't wait to see Joshua, I think they will be best buds. :-) We were the chosen family from 24 famiies and they chose us because of our experience with Eli! Trying to make things happen with William on the other hand, has always felt just that, us trying to make it happen. We want him, but when it comes down to the decision, we don't feel as strongly that he is the one God has chosen for us.
I am sad, but in a strange way I feel more at peace than I have in quite a while, almost a feeling of relief. I will miss William's smile, and laugh and bright happy eyes though. I know that God has a very special family out there though, that must be the ones that He desires for William's forever family.
We are probably going to do the presentation for Joshua on Wednesday the 19th and then go to Austin on the 21st as was originally planned, before all the plans went haywire earlier this week. We are excited to go and meet Joshua, finally!
Love one another~Adrienne
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Things are looking up!
God is so good! My caseworker, Laurie, got a hold of someone about William finally today. William has been moved from the foster unit to the adoption unit now, and Laurie and a long and good relationship with his new caseworker! She explained to her about my nephew Eli, and why they thought that we would be a good match for William in the first place and she is willing to going ahead with our family! :-) Hooray! We are going to be able to go and visit with him a couple of more times, but on these next couple of visits we will be allowed to pick William up and take him with us somewhere for a couple of hours, to allow him time to get used to being with us, and after that they will schedule an overnight visit at our home to see how that goes. If they all go well then there would be no reason for them to not go ahead and let us bring him home. I am very hopeful!
MORE good news...we are scheduled to have Joshua's presentation this Thursday the 13th and then go to Austin on the 21st and bring him home with us on the 22nd. His foster mom sounds so sweet, she is going to have a cookout on that night of the 21st for us, she is so happy that Joshua is getting a family of his own. There was a family that he was with for a good part of his life, they had wanted to adopt him, but then ended up divorcing. The dad really loves Joshua, but he couldn't take care of him on his own, it's really very sad. We will get to meet him while we are there too, the foster mom has invited him to the cookout. He sounds like a really neat man. Joshua has been very loved, I am so thankful for that! We will be with him in only ten more days!
I hope to be telling you soon when we get to have our next visits with William!
A friend of mine is hosting a baby shower for me on Sunday afternoon, I am very excited about that, but nervous too. I makes me quite uncomfortable being the center of attention, but I am SO thankful for it, we need many things for two toddler boys! I am so appreciative of all the support we are getting, it so awesome and humbling...
Love one another~Adrienne |
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Sunday, October 9, 2005
Tomorrow is a big day...
The visit Saturday went GREAT! My doctor has given me a clean bill of health. Next step is tomorrow, Monday, my caseworker Laurie is going to call and give both reports to William's caseworker. My prayer is that his caseworker will decide that we can go ahead and do the presentation and bring William home, but she could decide to have more supervised visits with us, or even to make him available for adoption to others. That thought just breaks my heart. All I have been able to think today is that I want to bring my baby home.
Laurie will call me tomorrow after she speaks with them about it, and I will know more what the future holds.
We have had a really nice weekend, very relaxing, which was very much needed. :-) I am off to watch LOST with Hubby now. I will update tomorrow, I hope for good news!
Love one another~Adrienne
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Saturday, October 8, 2005
New picture...
Isn't he such a sweet baby?? This was taken at our visit with William today, Saturday, at his foster mom's house. He had just got up from his nap when we got there, so he was still a bit sleepy in the picture. As you can see, he is a thumb sucker, and a blankie carrier. :-)
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Wednesday, October 5, 2005
Update...
Things are now not so sure for us on getting William. My little episode Friday has scared his caseworkers a bit. They say it is because they are concerned for my health, I hope it is that and not that they think I am emotionally unstable. I was, as you all saw a bit panicked on Friday. I handled the stress poorly, but I cannot go back and change it now. It is frustrating, but that's just the way it is.
They wanted me to be checked out by my doctor to make sure I am alright, so I went in yesterday and had some tests run on me. They did an EKG, and ran some blood tests. The EKG was normal and I will hear about the blood work by the end of the week. My doctor says because my blood pressure is so low that when I am stressed and it puts pressure on my vagus nerve and what she termed a "vasovagal syncope". I have found a few websites on it and read, and now that I read all of this it makes such sense. I have struggled with this before, but just never knew what it was!! In response to intense stress your heart rate and blood pressure drop, which reduces blood flow to your brain. This causes a feeling of warmth, lightheadedness, and dimming of vision and hearing, it always affects my arms first, they get numb and tingly feeling. This does not happen to me all the time by any means but it has happened several times in my life when I have been anticipating something stressful. I have always had very low blood pressure, my mom and Grandpa too, and yesterday she said it was very low even for me, she told me to eat a lot of pickles to get more salt into my body, and/or drink gatorade type drinks, and to stay hydrated.
If you are interested in reading any of the information on vasovagal syncope
here are a few websites:
HERE and
AND HERE.
The best part of learning this is that I have learned thorugh reading at these sites that if I am going to be in situations that would normally cause me to have a reaction I should increase my consumption of fluids and salt to increase my blood volume, and if I feel it coming on at all by the arm tingling, I can lie down with my feet elevated and it the feeling should go away.
I have had the same situation in the past whenever I've had any medical procedure, saw Christine get stiches in her leg, got my nose pierced, and now seeing my hope-to-be son and his foster mom at the doctor's office. All times of anxiety. My Hubby thinks that this is just so like me, he has always called me "fragile". He seems to like it in a strange way that I am "fragile", maybe it makes him feel like I need him, my big strong man. :-)
I just pray that William's caseworkers will not let this keep us from getting William. Laurie, my caseworker, said that his CW Christine understood that meeting your new forever child may be stressful. I just hope that they don't think I am going to faint all the time. I have made it through almost thirteen years of Christine's life now and it hasn't impeded my abilitly to parent her at all. I pray they think the same way.
Love one another~Adrienne |
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Sunday, October 2, 2005
Finally...pictures of William
Saturday, October 1, 2005
Wonderful friends...
Thank you so much! I am so sorry that you all are being dragged along on my roller coaster car journey, but I am so very, very thankful that you care enough to check in and see how things are going for us. It is amazing to know that people that don't even really know me care enough to lift me up in prayer to our Lord. I am truly grateful. Prayer is amazing, and so is my strong, always steady Hubby who knows me so well and loves me even more for being me.
He and Christine know me TOO well almost. I was so worked up before I even left yesterday, knowing that I would be meeting Will and his foster mom alone, knowing his foster mom wasn't too sure about me. I was too nervous to eat anything before I left, and normally it wouldn't be that big of a deal but it was a horrible combination with the stress. I was just letting all of these fears I have run through my mind about caring for Will, about how sad he will be to leave his foster mother, will he love me, will my family truly accept the fact that he is African American, can I help him with his medical needs and not faint when things happen, am I strong enough, do I have enough faith, can I die to myself and care more about this cute chubby little boy and his needs...??? I know now that I sure can't do it on my own, I can't do it without staying focused on God's will instead of my own fears, and not without being honest with myself and God and my family and friends, letting others pray for me. I am not strong, I am weak. The words from a simple child's song "I am weak, but He is strong" are ringing in my ears. :-)
I am definitely on a journey. If only I can remember each day to lay my burden at the cross and stop trying to carry it up and over and through these DAILY peaks and valleys all by myself.
It is well with my soul.
Love one another~Adrienne
It's weird to read this after the fact...of course NOW I know that it all really did happen for a reason, we were meant to get our Joshua! Praise God that He is in control of all things and works them all together for the good of those who love Him! |
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Friday, September 30, 2005
Need urgent prayer...
I don't think I can say any of this out loud yet, maybe I can write it...
I just now got home from seeing William and taking Christine to her Language Arts class. While we were at the doctor's office, I almost passed out. If I hadn't been holding William and not wanted to drop him, I probably would not have given anyone any notice before I hit the floor. I had buckets of sweat pouring off of me and couldn't move because I was so weak, the Nurse Practitioner got cranberry juice for me and fanned me with a book. It took a really long time to be able to stand up again. I am not sure about adopting William anymore. I feel no peace, I feel panic instead. My head seems to be screaming NO, and I am so disappointed in my reaction that I can't quit crying. I don't know if it's all real or not though, I am second guessing everything. I didn't feel what I think I "should" feel. I wish my Hubby were home to talk to. I have prayed and prayed about it and all I do is cry...Maybe a few hours or a new day will help clear my mind? I just really don't know what to think. Is this just fear, or should I listen to it? I don't know if I have ever felt this confused before.
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Friday, September 30, 2005
Just an hour away...
Only an hour until I meet William! I will update as soon as I can later today, but it will probably not be until tonight after Christine and I get home from Latin/Grammar class over at Samantha's house.
It took me until 1:30 to finally get to sleep last night, and then I woke up at 5:00 and the mind started turning again and I've been up ever since. :-) Not excited, nah, not at all. Yeah right.
Hopefully, I haven't had too much coffee this morning and scare his foster mom! :-) I get pretty revved and talk a lot when I do, just ask Christine. Yes, I haven't had much caffeine in a while, so one cup can really rev me up. I have been drinking coffee off and on again for about a week and a half Instead of trying to quit entirely like before, I am trying the moderation thing. I'm not usually good at it, I am usually an all or nothing kind of gal for the most part. So far, so good though. :-)
My digital camera is acting up again, so I may or may not have pictures of William tonight. :-( It's always something isn't it? I just bought a new vacuum cleaner, finally...yesterday. Ours has been dead for about two months now I think, and I've been borrowing my friends here and there, but my caprets have been horrible because I haven't liked to ask too often. It's pretty cool, but now I'll have to save for a new camera.
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Friday is an exciting day!
Friday, I get to meet William!! William's caseworker wants for me to attend his next two scheduled doctor's visits, and the next one is Friday for his pediatriction well check visit. I am not sure if it's a good thing or not that the first time that William sees me is a day he will get shots. :-) Saturday or Sunday we will all three visit his foster home to spend some time with him, and then on Tuesday I will go to his nuerologist appointment with them. HOPEFULLY he will be moved to our home soon after that, my caseworker says maybe Wednesday, but I am sure that it will be a bit later than that. I would love for him to be here for a least a week before we make the trip to Austin to see Johnny Joe though, but it is, obviously, out of my hands. We will just do what comes and it will all work out.
UPDATE: Well, Johnny Joe's worker just called me, how nice to speak to her in person and not have to go through a third party to get information, we are going to be scheduled to go to Austin on the 21st of October to see him. Before that we will have a phone conference to learn the full disclosure of his case, and after the full disclosure we will have 24 hours to give them our final decision.
Christine and I are feeling so much better now, and just trying to get back on track with things. It's so hard to be down for a couple of days and get so behind in things! I will have to give her lots of extra help for her to not feel too overloaded! She was so much worse than I was, and I felt horrible, so I can't imagine how she felt! My poor baby girl. :-) I had better get back to her now!
Love one another~Adrienne
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Lots of reading material...
I was able to meet William's CPS caseworker today, and she provided me with a foot tall stack of paperwork on William! Needless to say, it will take a while to get through it all. A lot of it is medical files, stuff that I don't know how to decipher, from when he was in the hospital for a month after he was born because he was a preemie, born at 30 weeks. His family history is quite a long read too, much of it sad with parents repeating their own parent's mistakes. Patterns are hard to break.
I am so excited that soon we will get to meet William! The caseworker gave me two pictures of him today, both were taken when he was first taken into care at four months old, but I can sure see what Laurie was talking about when she said he looked like the boy in Hook. He does, really! He has a cleft in his chin, I can't wait to see him smile and know if he has dimples or not! :-)
I am scared to make the wrong decision. I am just going to put that out there, I am sure that has probably been obvious, but just in case, there it is.
Be praying for those in the gulf ports of Texas this next couple of days, Hurricane Rita is on her way, a category 5! I pray that they evacuate, and that those who are not able to themselves have help!
Love one another~Adrienne
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Where's the peace?
I had it, I lost it, I don't know where I put it, but if you see it let me know, PLEASE!
I am joking, sort of. :-) This is just difficult, but I did get some very good news about William today! I will go to the CPS office at 2:00 today to pick up his de-identified files. Hubby couldn't get off of work to go down there, so they are going to let me bring them home, which is wonderful. William's worker says that after we read through them, if we are still interested we will go to meet his foster mother, and then start visits to get to know him and see what it looks like caring for him. I am so relieved that we will get to do this before we make our decision, it just makes it so much easier for me. They do not want to place him somewhere and then the people realize it is more than they can handle and have to move him again. It is what is best for William, and I think we all want what is best for him!
Well, I am out the door to get the files!
Love one another~Adrienne
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Saturday, September 17, 2005
No info yet...
We were not able to read the information on Johnny Joe today because the package from Austin had not yet arrived at our agency, but we did stop up there this afternoon and talk Laurie who wrote me the e-mail below. Laurie was able to give us a bit more information on William, and now we have to decide what we would like her to tell his case worker on Monday, they are not forcing us to make a decision this quickly, but we want to decide before they have to put too much thought into finding him a permanant home.
We all watched the movie Hook tonight. We haven't yet been able to see a picture of William, but we've been told, by Laurie, that he resembles the boy Pockets in the movie Hook. (Laurie cannot stop telling us how cute and precious he is) Pockets is the one boy who believed that Peter really was Peter Pan after he once again enters the hideaway of the Lost Boys. He smooshes Peter's face back in an attempt to see past the affects age has had on him, it was very cute, he says "Now I see you Peter!". He was cute, the movie was cute, it was an enjoyable evening!
I am feeling an immense sense of peace about everything today, I know that God is hearing all the prayers offered from our friends and family, and I feel so at peace. Ever since Sparrow left the comment on the last post, thank you Sparrow, each time I have felt anxious the verse from Proverbs immediately enters my mind and it's as if the Lord himeself is whispering into my ear:
Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
This one too:
Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with
thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
I am reminded how worn and starved I am when I am lacking God's word.
Thank you Father for your God-breathed word, it's like finally finding the light when I've been wandering lost in the darkness, or oxygen when I've been suffocated by the worries of this world. Thank you for my family and my friends who lay requests for my family before your Holy throne, and for peace that surpasses all worldly understanding. You are my rock when everything else seems to be slipping away from underneath me, thank you Precious Father, Wonderful Counselor.
Love one another~Adrienne
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Exhausted, scared, and excited...all rolled into one!
I am so emotionally exhausted tonight from the excitement of this day, so I won't write too much tonight, but I wanted to share that we were chosen as the "lead" family chosen for Johnny Joe! Normally, they would have contacted our agency, let them know that our family was one of the few famiies being considered and they would send someone to represent us at the committee meeting where they choose the lead family. They didn't do that, they went to committee without letting them know, called and said we were it, and the reason they chose us was because of our experience with my nephew Eli. Amazing.
We have gone through just a small portion of his file today, and they are sending the rest of it from Austin today and we should be reading it all on Saturday I imagine. He may have something called Angelman's Syndrome, it is not positive, but the geneticist seems to think it is a definite possibility. I have been reading all about it this evening, Whew! It seems to also describe my nephew Eli, who is undiagnosed at this time, and says that it is usually undiagnosed until the age of three or more. My mind is swarming, with doubts and fears and hopes and excitement. I cannot begin to describe it really.
After we read his complete files we will then have to decide if we are still interested in adopting him, at this point, even though I am vacillating between terror and joy; we are.
Our agency has also called on the sibling group to see what the status is on them. We can't accept them all, so if we find out we are one of the ones chosen for them too, probably highly unlikely, then we would be faced with a choice. I cannot imagine making that choice; them or Johnny Joe.
Dear glorious Father in Heaven, direct our steps, take away my fears, help me to meditate only on your faithfulness and loving care in all things. You have a plan that cannot be upset! I long to follow your will for our family and for Johnny Joe, I beseech you to make it clear to us Father in this crucial time of decision making. I pray for a humble spirit Father.
Proverbs 16:9
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.
Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.
Jeremiah 2:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
It would probably be a great thing if I would remember to breathe too! :-)
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Monday, September 12, 2005
Tough call today...
Brad, the director of our adoption agency called my cell this evening while we were at my sister's house. He wanted to know if we could take a foster placement of a three month old boy who had been taken on suspision of child endangerment. I had to tell him no. It was hard to do. I reminded him of our waiting on the three siblings and how we are only approved for three so we can't take any foster right now just in case. He said we need to call and figure out what's going on with that. I am all for that! Anyhow, the little one has probably already found a safe home for the night. He had three cracked ribs and they took him until they know what happened. I pray that his family didn't mean to hurt him, that he just fell or something, and that they will get him back very soon. What a nightmare to go through! He probably wouldn't have been with us for long anyhow, so maybe we could have kept him for the night, but I just didn't know. The hardest part for me is having to make a decision as soon as they call, threre is no stopping a thinking about it. I just pray that the Lord is the one who directs our steps!
Love one another~Adrienne |
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