Blogging is definatly an easy place to write down everything your feeling and going through. I have to take a minute and apologize to everyone, for venting all of my trials on here. You can tell when someone is going through a hard time, when the posts turn to sobbing.
Things are already looking up, and it has been two days since my big let down. We went to some friends' house last night who have been through the exact situation as us, and adopted the cutest little girl from China just 5 months ago. It was very comforting being with another woman who completly understands the emotions I am going through. They prayed with us, and encouraged us to not give up hope and know that God will make His paths clear.
I have stopped crying about it all, and am looking forward. Today I am going to put all of my energy into my kids, and preparing for our camping trip next weekend.
Does anyone here do Civil war reenactment? Our friends last night have been involved in it, and it looks like so much fun! I would love to be able to sew my own dresses. I am clueless about sewing clothing, but I am sure I could learn (I hope!). Madeline got really exctied thinking about wearing an old fashioned dress and bonnet, with little pantaloons. So now we are thinking about doing the reenactment. This would be a fun thing to do as a family. And I would be able to put my knitting to use!
I am so sorry to hear of your news, you had every right to vent or express what was on your heart. You never know who might be reading and going through a similar situation and reading your words will uplift her and encourage her as she sees you trusting in the Lord and overcoming this heart ache! I think Adoption is wonderful, with our 4th boy just being born I told Troy this is Gods way of letting us know he wants us to adopt a little girl :-) I am praying for you, praying that you will have the desires of your heart!
I just read your previous posts to catch up. :) One thing that has helped me when I start to get depressed or frustrated that the path of my life isn't clear and orderly.....I look back at his blessings. For instance, when I get depressed that I don't have a home? I remember that we're saving a bunch of money due to his employer paying our rent. SEE? I can look at things two ways, and I'm going to choose the latter.
I stink at focus, but you get the picture. (I think I'm talking myself back into this!)
The civil war reenactment sounds fun, but lots of work. I plan on being allergic to work this summer after all this work right now. :)
A friend of mine on a message board asked me about my Civil War reenacting and this is what I wrote to her:
"We LOVE it!
It gives us the opportunity to spend time as a family, in the outdoors -- and to meet lots of neat people and learn living history in the process.
What you want to do is *attend* a couple of events first. Visit the camps and gravitate toward those where you see children...and talk to the reenactors there. Ask lots of questions. That's what we did. That is how we discovered a very family-oriented, family-centered unit.
Some units are very strict about being completely period correct, which means that the men camp in the military camp, while the wives and children camp separately in a civilian camp. This simply would not work for us! We want FAMILY time! So we are in the type of unit that makes it a family activity.
Our captain is good about letting the boys drill with the unit, and teaching them how to keep the fire going, how to clean rifles, how to fill cartridges, etc. All of my children have duties helping the camp cook, whether it be in the cooking and preparation itself, or the clean-up, or fetching water, or washing dishes.
There is ample opportunity for tree-climbing, and other "nature stuff". Sitting around the campfire at night is a big hit with the kids, and there are Sunday tent services. Oh, and a ladies tea on Saturday afternoons and a ball on Saturday nights.
The thing I like best is that, for those weekends, all of the reenactors are like a big family. A lot of these are people we normally wouldn't associate with on a daily basis, but here, everyone looks out for one another's children and everyone just kind of melds together with one hobby in common.
There are people from ALL walks of life. Our unit has other families with children (and one other homeschool family), a high class lawyer to a motorcycle mechanic, step families, adoptive families, and singles (both men and women). There are Christians (and one member of our unit is a Baptist pastor), and there are a few lost souls that hang out at the campfire long after everyone else is in bed getting drunk and telling hunting and fishing stories. The youngest member is my Reagan, and the oldest members are in their 60s.
But, the bottom line is, everyone in our family has found his or her own niche, while still enjoying time together as a family. And the kids have learned SO much."
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