• Thursday, July 16, 2009
16wks - Still WAITING - Ultrasound scheduled.
Sam and I are still in awe at the amazing outpouring we have gotten during the last 2wks.
Thank you to all of you who have been praying for us from the start of this pregnancy! And thank you to those of you who have truly been praying for healing, believing in a miracle and walking in faith with us.
I got a call from the hospital saying that my doc had scheduled a D&C (for those of you who may not know what that is - basically it is where they clean out your uterus). I couldn't believe that they had scheduled it without talking to us, so we called back and canceled the sugery. My doc called kind of freaking out that we weren't gonna do the D&C... I explained to her that I just don't feel right about it and that I would like to have another ultrasound.
After a heartbreaking phone call with her because she had to explain in great detail the very many risks there are in waiting.... she thought we were making the wrong choice, holding onto false hope and that I am going to damage my body... I held my ground and told her I wanted another ultrasound... So she finally agreed.
I went to church very shaken up! I did what I could of leaving my worries at home and focus on God, but you know it floods back in the second someone asks how I am doing... but I spent time in worship just giving God my worries and trying to trust and to get those concerns out of my mind.
I was sharing with a friend of mine that God would make this so easy if I get to the ultrasound and there is a very strong heartbeat.... ah, my soul will be able to rest easy and rejoice... but part of me is scared that there wont be... and then what.... do I still hold on? Ignore the risks? Or do I just go ahead and accept that baby is no longer living? Becky just turned to me and told me to keep the faith and to hold onto what I believing.... just at that second I looked out in our children's area, and there were the words to not trust things with my eyes but to keep believing in the things unseen... of course I just busted into tears.... God always seems to bring those little reminders every time I start to shake in my faith.
I finally got the Ultrasound scheduled for Monday the 20th at 1pm. I am gonna walk in there believing to see a heartbeat... and if there isn't.... well, we will walk down that road if we need to.
Come on prayer warriors.... lets continue to stand spiritual arm to spiritual arm. I do believe that this baby is a promise. Please stand with me, those of you who truly truly believe that the God we serve is still the God who performs miracles today! Please stand with me, those of you who truly truly believe that with God all things are possible. Please stand with me, those of you who truly truly believe God is God above all!
Love you each and everyone of you who have cried with us, believed with us, stood with us... prayed with us.... you all are so special in our hearts!!!!
PS - I still have NO signs of all of a miscarriage... I have had NO cramping, NO bleeding..... I still feel pregnant!
Comments
• Thursday, July 16, 2009
prayer
Posted by Beth/Mom2TwoVikings
Will be standing facing Lake Michigan and raising hands to the Holy One for you all weekend while we're camping. Will be home Sunday night and will be waiting to hear your report on Monday!
• Thursday, July 16, 2009
baby
Posted by Judy
I know and believe that this wee one will be live and kicking. The word says that "we are wonderfully and fearfully made and that GOD knew us before we were formed in our mother's womb". Allana, you know that satan would bring things that would cause you to question - like the doctor saying all these things will happen to you if you don't.....but GOD says "who's report will you believe?" Well we stand believing that just as Jesus raised Lazarus, Jarius' daughter and the others that HE IS THE SAME YESTERDAY, TODAY AND FOREVER! If HE did it then HE will do it now and I believe with all my heart that in a few short months YOU WILL be holding your little one. GOD bless you and keep on believing. Love you...and praying for GOD's peace to keep you...don't let anyone or anything sway your mind!!!!
• Thursday, July 16, 2009
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Posted by Melissa R
It's amazing how although you have never met or spoken to someone in person, how much you feel your lives are close...cry together, laugh together, stand on God's Word and believe together. Standing and believing with you! God is certainly a miracle working God and I KNOW nothing is impossible for those who love Him. Hugz.
• Thursday, July 16, 2009
You are such an inspiration
Posted by Anonymous
I am teary eyed yet again, after reading your post...I feel so much faith in you! I am continually praying for a miracle...Love you!
(((Hugs)))
Chris (fellow CHCer)
• Thursday, July 16, 2009
Praying!!!
Posted by legomom3
Allana, I have seen God move so powerfully in my own life lately and even though I'm dealing with different issues, a miracle is still a miracle no matter what form it takes!! I know that YOU know that God is in control, regardless of what the world tells us in our given situation.
Love,
Maria
• Thursday, July 16, 2009
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Posted by Joy
Allana ~ I am STANDING, I am BELIEVING and I am praying that the one and only I AM will work a miracle that will not only leave you and Sam in awe... but also that doctor! All for His glory... these things I am asking for in the mighty, powerful Name of our precious Saviour, Christ Jesus!
• Thursday, July 16, 2009
Love you
Posted by Debbie
And you still look Beautifully Pregnant when I last saw you on Sunday.
I love you and I am praying and believing with you
