Well, I've been ignoring this area of my life for a while now. I just haven't wanted to deal with it. I haven't wanted to discipline myself. I've been maintaining for the most part, so I figured, that was good enough. Well, it is IF I was eating right and exercising, which I'm not... and now the pounds are creeping back on.

So, instead of ignoring the scale and waiting until I've added another ten or fifteen pounds to my frame, I am getting back on track. 

I realize that to most people, I do not necessarily look overweight.  When people learned I was attending WW, they would say, "Oh, but you look fine," or "You don't need to lose weight."  Well, for me, it can't all be about what I look like.  *I* know that I am not at MY healthy weight.  *I* know that I have not been disciplined in this area.  *I* know that I have not honored the Lord in this area.  I also know that I have health issues that demand that I deal with this now or else I will regret it later.

I've been struggling with emotional issues and feeling spiritually dry lately.  Instead of seeking the Lord more so, I've been feeding my flesh with junk food.  As I'm attempting to fill myself, I'm shrinking on the inside, yet getting bigger on the outside!  The only way that I will be victorious in this venture is by God's grace alone.  And, so, I must seek Him first.  As I seek Him first, then HE will fill my emptiness... the inside of me will be full, and the outside of me will shrink.  Well, at least at that point, it will be in the Lord's hands and not mine.

Our church's worship director said something a few days ago that really struck a chord with me (no pun intended).  He was sharing something out of his life and he said that in his circumstaince he learned that God will not extend His grace to us until we stop trying to take care of things on our own and turn to Him and trust Him for the results.  He was talking about something completely different, but the Lord put this issue of food and weight loss on my heart when that was said. 

I can continue down the road I'm on right now and try as hard as I can... and ultimately, knowingly fail.  Or, I can surrender this once and for all to the Lord, disciplining myself, denying myself, and follow Him... and reap the blessings that come along with that.

So, without further ado, I've decided to start another blog - NewCreation!  This blog will be a place for me to be completely transparent and honest and be accountable... without it taking over this blog, which I originally intended to be a place to encourage other homeschoolers. 

I am not a "wing-it" kind of person.  I've always been a person who does better with some structure and a plan.  Hence, I also do well when I journal daily about my eating, etc.  Having a blog for this will make that a little more fun... and I pray and hope that it will be a place for others who struggle in this as I have, to be encouraged, inspired, and motivated.... while it also helps me to be accountable and stay on track.

I will soon be adding a link for this on my sidebar here.  If this is an area that you would like to chat about and be involved with me, please be sure to stop by often to read and comment.

Praise be to God our Father!  It is in Him that I trust!

Blessings,

~LISA