• Sep. 6, 2009
Don't Have the Words
Hi (Kendra).
This past week or so I have found myself dealing with some major anxiety. I'm nervous, shaky, majorly stressed, and my mind is totally consumed. I sat in church today completely speechless. Here we were praying as a church for "our" future and I couldn't even come up with the words to say ANYTHING. Have you ever felt that way?? You are before God doing something you totally believe in (prayer) and... NOTHING.
The most important thing to me is to do what the Lord would have me to do. I don't want to go after what I desire. I really pray for God to lead me (us) in whatever I (we) do. I believe I am feeling the Lord leading us in a particular direction but a weakness I have is allowing others to guilt me into things. I feel for people and I want to please everyone. I don't want people to be hurt by me. THIS is why I'm feeling like I'm gonna have a nervous breakdown. The stress of this is too overwhelming for me.
I can go the direction that I feel the Lord leading and some will be hurt OR I can ignore the Lord's leading and be guilted into doing something that would please the most people.
Either way, if you read this blog I would appreciate your prayers. I need peace in my heart and I need the Lord's help to take a major step of faith.
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• Sep. 7, 2009
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Posted by mcblog
I don't know what's going on, Amy, but I will be praying. I struggle with doing what will please others as well(and I probably need to re-read the book Boundaries soon as a reminder), but you are exactly right that the only One you need to please is the Lord. With Him as your focus, you can't go wrong. God has something to teach those who are watching you follow His path whether or not it will make them happy. You do what you know is right, and let God handle everyone else. ;) I know it's easier to say than to do!
