Something I have been thinking about recently are friends.

I have made some new friends this year and that makes me happy though I miss the friends I feel I have lost this year along the way. I guess that's what bothers me the most is the feeling of losing friends those who were close physically and emotionally and those who are distant/online. How is it that so many different people can come into one’s life and become so very close only to depart ever so quickly? I have no idea but as I look back over my 38 years my husband is the only friend I have had for more than just a few years. We have been together for 16 years and married for over 14. I don’t understand how people can keep close relationships with friends for their entire lifetime or close to it? I mean I am making some reconnections on facebook with old acquaintances but very few, like 3 maybe, were ever very close. How does a person go from being close (spending huge amounts of time together) to being someone you rarely speak with? I know that people are meant to be in one’s life for one reason or another but, it is sad when the relationship changes to the point where you rarely speak, call or see each other.

I have no idea why I am thinking this except that I am missing my friends, people who like me for no reason other than I am me. I am even missing those who need me for what I can be or do for them. I often have felt a lot of the friends I have had in my life were there because I could help them in some way and have usually been more than happy to do so. Oh well, I guess I am done here. I will go watch my TV and wonder when my next friend will enter or leave.

This is one thing I can say is that I have one good friend, my husband, and the rest are acquaintances, though some of them were very important friends and a large part of my life for a time.