• Sep. 21, 2007
Wow...
haha i forgot i had this thing...
Not a whole lot to say, except God has been working in my life in some amazing ways lately. He has shown me so much.
Well, mock trial. My brother's team won first place in the Region, and went all the way to Nationals, and won first place!!! I was an alternate for that team.
This year I was added to that team =)
That about sums up my life as of late. I'll try to post more then once or twice a year ;)
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• Jan. 18, 2007
YAAAY look who's back!
yep...well it's been a month...so new entry.....
HEEEY!!!!! :-)
ok...bye.
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• Dec. 18, 2006
wow...
So i guess i haven't been here that much lately...at all... =( i've been really busy, and the fact that it's almost Christmas doesn't help...
I've been slowing down on my writing a lot the past few months. Blogs and other things. doing Mock Trial has enough writing in it =D My team got 7th place this last comp. =D that was cool. my bro's team got 2nd. After that i was asked to move to a Vars. team...and i'm a NOVICE! (and was on a novice team) 
but my team has been asking me to write a lot of stuff. =] that's cool. our next comp is in Feb...that decides who goes to State :-) and then who ever wins goes to Nationals. Our homeschool team has won twice in a row! =D YAY US!!!
That's about it i guess...Christmas is almost here! my grandparents are coming...so off to finish cleaning!
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• Sep. 20, 2006
i'm still here...
hey guys 
...i'm still here....just haven't had a lot to say....i'm in homeschool mock trial now...that's taken over my life....yep....
Some days you just kinda need to act your age, instead of ppl telling you "oh you look and act so much older!!!" yeah well BLEH! i'm tired today, so i'm gonna act like the little high schooler that i am.....
i'll be my "mature" self tomorrow...i just need to be a little crazy today to get the stress off...
ttyl,
ML 
tee hee i likey this......YAY ME
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• Aug. 17, 2006
“Undo,”… “Save”
i think so many times we use blogs for our reasons (to help get out stuff). i'm ok w/ that, i think it helps us see God in hard times...so, here was one of my own things i've written that i used to help get over a death of a guy who home schooled (and my great uncle, and a friend's brother's death). i wrote this for many reasons. I pray you find as much encouragement as i did after i wrote it.\
ML
I know, it’s not fair for us, and it doesn’t seem fair for them…or maybe they’re better off…
Sometimes I think that the “undo” and “save” button on my computer are my best friends. The concept of those buttons apply to our lives too. We always want to save our good works (like when I write a few sentences that make me sound like a straight-A college student, or when I a-line something on my card making program just right), and “undo” our mistakes (like when I accidentally delete 10 pages I just wrote).
In fact, it seems like all the time our lives apply to that same concept in every way. We’re always wanting to save our wonderful moments, and wanting to undo the bad moments…our mistakes. We all know that in every mistake, there’s a consequence. Sometimes very minor like being taken away from the computer for a few days, or, when we suffer the hardest consequence of all, losing our life.
I never liked either.
I learned just a few days ago, that this past Wednesday, a young man, who actually went to my school, and I knew his sister by face, died in a car accident. I don’t know details. Did he die because God was mad at him? No. did he die because he made a mistake? I can’t say… Did he die because he paid the price for someone else? I don’t know. Did he die because God said it was time? Yes. It was all part of His perfect plan for this young man’s life.
Some people will try to tell you that it was not part of God’s plan for him to die. That his life was cut short. I can whole-heartedly agree that his wonderful life was cut short, it seems to us, here on earth, because we don’t know what God’s plan was for this young man’s, age of 19, life. I can not agree that it was not part of God’s plan. The Bible says that the devil comes to kill and destroy. People will try to tell you that the devil killed this young man and tried to take him away from us, and that it was not in God’s plan…scary thought huh? It’s not true. That would be saying that God is not in control. I do believe that God lets the devil do these kind of things to us though (read the book of Job in the Bible)…but it’s all a part of God’s perfect plan. He might use the death to save some one else. This young man was a Christian. He was ready to go home, even though he did not live out his full potential life. What ever God’s purpose for this man was, he fulfilled it, and He didn’t make him stay in this temporary life anymore. I truly believe that he’s in a better place now. It may hurt more then anything for his friends, family, and anyone else who knew him, or knew of him, and it’s okay to be sad and cry and miss him. But we won’t have to miss him for long. God holds our tears in His hand, and sees each tear that we cry, and hears each sad thought that goes through our head, and one day, God will wipe away all of our tears.
Maybe the other people involved in the accident hadn’t fulfilled their earthly purpose…maybe they weren’t ready to go home yet…maybe “home” would be the last place we all want to end up.
But let’s look at some comforting causes of this tragic situation (sometimes we accept things better if God shows us a scientific reason for the tragedy…sometimes God tries to show us just to trust Him, and he’ll make everything okay, one day…):
It could have been this young man was riding with an irresponsible driver, or not wearing a seatbelt, or one (or a lot) of many things. But those are “candy coated” solutions. We want science to give us an answer for “why?” We want it explained to us why this would happen. We can’t simply accept that that was what God wanted. I think we were made that way, and God says it’s okay to struggle with these questions. Sometimes they bring us closer time Him (Look! There’s a reason for his death. If he was ready to go home, then his death maybe will prepare someone else to go home…) I can’t tell you why people die, when science says it was not their fault. I can’t even explain it when science says it is. Maybe God has a special plan for the person who didn’t get hurt. Maybe they haven’t accepted Jesus yet. And maybe God just said it was time. It’s as simple as that. I know that might not be very comforting. “Why are they preaching something they may know nothing about? How do they know how hard it is to accept this sort of thing?!” you may be yell at your computer (me) right now…
I can answer that sort of question…and then some:
Have you ever just wondered what it’d be like to lose a loved one that you were very close to? I’m sure we all know what it’s like to lose a distant relative, or a friend of your parents. Not very much emotion. We’re built that way. We do not experience very much emotion when something happens to someone our hearts are not close to, but we experience so much love, joy, excitement, and sometimes pain when something happens to someone we’re close to. I pray that you’ve never lost someone very close to you.
Now, sometimes we feel emotion because we feel like we have to, but we don’t. I didn’t experience that much emotion when my great grandmother died when I was very young. I didn’t know her, and I had only seen her once or twice in my life…once that I can remember. I saw my great grandfather a few more times that that. I remember some distinct things about him. And I loved him so much, but the only emotion I felt when he died, was not being able to go to the funeral. I was very, very when he died, but at that time, I had trouble making my feelings known. I experienced some emotion when my grandfather died. Not in public though. I didn’t cry at the funeral, or at the visitation. Only when I was at home, alone in my room, did I cry. When my grandmother died, a year ago this month, did I experience the most painful emotion. I cried when we found out she was expected to die, I cried when I saw her the last few times before she died, I cried when she died, and cried during the visitation, I cried during the funeral, I cried when we buried her, and I cried at home after the funeral while I was talking to God about it.
Maybe, just maybe, I could go back and undo what happened to my grandmother, so that she’d still be here today. But I wouldn’t. Why would I make my grandmother live on this earth, when she is perfectly happy in heaven? I wouldn’t. I wouldn’t for my great grandmother, or for my great grandfather, or my grandfather, or I wouldn’t even try to stop my great uncle (who out of that list I probably knew better) who’s expected to die in the next week or so. Grandma went home to Jesus, and be reunited with her husband. Just like when the Father will send the Son back to be reunited with his bride (us).
I know it’s very hard to lose a loved one. I have not lost anyone I was terribly close to yet. I do know it’s hard no matter what. I do know that the questions are going to flow like crazy, with the tears, for a very long time. I know it’s going to be like you wake up every morning saying “they’re gone…they’re really gone” and look hopeless and lonely for a while. I do know that in the end, if you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, that one day, one perfect day, we’ll see those loved ones again. And it’ll all be part of God’s perfect plan.
Even though both “undo” situations are hard, we must know that they’re in a better place. Yes, some of us have to live up to our mistakes, and lose our lives. Sometimes we have to pay the price for others. Yes, sometimes we will see loved ones pass us by because they lived a long life. Both are very, very hard to accept. I know it’s not as hard to accept that some died at 90, then someone who died at 19. It’s not as hard to accept someone died peacefully in there sleep, early in the morning, rather then painfully in a car accident, late into the night. It may be easier to accept that someone died because of old age, rather then careless driving by someone else. I know it maybe be easier to accept that some life fulfilled person died, rather then someone who died, and life was cut short…or maybe we all live a fulfilled life before we die, whether we’re 19, or 90, but it still doesn’t seem fair. And that’s okay, we don’t have to understand God’s plan. We may never know what the person’s life was for. But yes, it’s all part of God’s perfect plan. There’s always a reason for God’s perfect plan. It may not seem very perfect at the time, but it is. I can promise you that.
M*~
In honor, and loving memory of
November 3rd, 1986 – June 14th, 2006
May your life still be used for God…forever and always…
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• Aug. 15, 2006
Hey!!!!
Hey guys!
i'm Mandy (i go by ML) and this is my blog!!!!! um, i have no idea how this works, so we'll so how this goes...leave me comments and tell me what to do!!!!!! lol,
lyl, ttyl,
ML
