Oct. 27, 2009
Am I still qualified to blog?
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Today is a beautiful calm gray rainy day. I love rainy days. Everyone seems to settle down when the roads are quiet. Even the birds are still. It makes me want to curl up with a good book and a cup o joe or hot chocolate. Of course, I am 'curled' up , or rather surrounded by hundreds of books here at my job. Yes, I am still working in the library. It's officially been 2 years as of last week. I did however make a move in March to a smaller library when the manager position came open. I love the new job, and the new position :) But, that's not the biggest change that has happened this year. All summer my heart was heavy about our 'homeschooling'. After graduating two children and seeing them off to the wild blue yonder, I had felt confident that having only the two youngest, and girls to boot, left at home, that school would be a cinch and like little house on the prairie... only in our case... little log cabin/mobile home on the lake. But something was missing. The girls were 'bored'. I was tired of it all and quite frankly tired. ugh. My health isn't the best and it was beginning to show in our school day. I found myself more and more wanting to get others to teach them , anything. From music, to sewing, to art, you name it. Don't get me wrong, we enjoyed our time together and were happy as ever... but , not much learning going on. Praying and searching, exploring options, talking with my husband and my girls.... all summer long. End of summer came and I sat down with my son, now home from his second year in college. Finding him confused and anxious was no surprise. I had seen this before when my oldest daughter came home from her sophomore year in college. Questions, so many questions, doubts, and confusion led to mere frustration. I began to realize that the 'real' world, while still is the home, church, community - not a public school or institution, was bigger than my little cabin on the lake. I had missed something in their schooling. Yes, we are a tight family. Yes, our faith is strong. Yes, our love is deep. But, somehow the children were not prepared for some of the challenges that would come their way. to be continued....... |
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