Posted in This week in the Silver lining
Hello friends:
To my disgust, I've found that I've put on the 30 pounds that I had lost back 2-3 years ago. I know what you're thinking; As a response to it, and as any american traditionalist would do, I decided to give up on trying to set any New Year's resolutions to loose weight, yet again.
However, I heard on several radio shows now, that in order to really attain results from New Year's resolutions, one has to set specific goals rather than general broad ones. It's because of this that I've set myself a 'specific' goal to loose 3-4 lbs. per month. I figured it would be attainable and by the end of 11-12 months, I'd be exactly where I'd need to be.
Six days into the month (Happy Three Kings day/Epiphany), I've found that I no longer can no longer have a clear distinction of how to go about it. I mean, it should be easy enough; exercise and eat less, right? I even set a few days a week as "gym" days. (Our Apt. complex has a gym I can use for free)!
However, I keep finding that (even before New Year's) for about a month or two, things have been 'too busy' to justify going to the gym. And they have! I mean, I'm not just putting excuses. If my gym day is Tuesday, we'll get home in time to go to bed! My husband finally said well, if this is going to continue to happen and you really want to do this, why not do it in the morning. Well that's easy for him to say since he is a morning person. I'm not! (you can ask Elizabeth about that ;) !
I am sincerely at a loss on this issue! (I really need to stop with the exclamations in this entry)! : P But really I’m noticing that my husband was correct in telling me that I should pray for The Lord to speak to my heart and tell me how can to best achieve it, instead of going by my own understanding, and so God can reveal to me his grace through the entire process so I don’t get down on myself.
I know now (after starting on my own), that’s what I must do. I need to pray for wisdom (to manage my time and meals better), and rely on God’s plan. Instead of trusting myself about knowing how much is “too much”; I’ll pray for being able to recogne when I’m “full”. (I’ve always had trouble distinguishing between “full” and “stuffed”). When I am full, but something tastes good, I end up eating it anyway.
It's about learning to deal with temptation. Temptation is something that affects all aspects of life. It is essential to learn from the Lord how to overcome it, in any sircumstance. Also, only if I have Him guiding me, can I not get down on myself through the process, and know that I have someone cheering me on and who loves me just the way I am even if I didn’t loose any weight ever. (Well, two with my husband). J