Ok so have you ever been pregnant and had your emotions help you make a complete fool of yourself? Well that is just what I did today. If you remember my original apt's were scheduled for last Tuesday the ultrasound and the Dr.'s apt for Wednesday. The Dr's office called and changed them to last Thursday ultrasound and today the Dr.s apt. I already shared about the Ultrasound. (Having a BOY!) Well today when I got there, I was told I was seeing the Midwife. "WHAT" not that I have a problem w/ the midwife, I don't I just had a million questions about scheduling the birth for my own Dr. So I sat in the Midwife waiting room trying not to cry. When the nurse comes and says you are supposed to see a Dr. not a midwife, due to your condition. "WHAT condition, I thought the Placenta Privia had moved? " I kept telling myself don't cry don't cry don't cry. They take me to another waiting room, (I go to a Big office there are a total of 3 waiting rooms) I was going to see MY Dr. YIPEE!!!!! OK! Happy Happy Happy, Thank you God. I sat there for 10 minutes and another nurse, came out and said I was not going to see my Dr. that I was going to see Dr. T. ???? They take me to another waiting room, I sit down and tell myself don't cry don't cry don't cry. Emotions are trying to take over. 5 minutes there, and they call me back. I go in and do the weight thing and the nurse says pee sample please and shuts the door. I sit down and start to CRY!!!! Oh! Boy I have to stop. What is wrong w/ my emotions. I pull myself together and go out she takes my blood pressure (good by the way even w/ the emotions) I am taken to the room to wait for the Dr. I am still not crying. The Dr. walks in a few minutes later and I start bawling the moment I see her! I could not stop. I just cried and cried. She waited patiently and finally pulled myself together and told her there was nothing against her but I was expecting to see my own Dr. and that this just put me in an emotional tail spin being taken from place to place to place. I am not going to get my delivery questions answered because she can't answer them. She was very nice and understanding. That the placenta privia has moved and we are in the clear. The ultrasound looked WONDERFUL all the parts where there, the fluid looked good and the size looked good. She did not see why my Dr. would change my due date or the original date we discussed for the C-Section Nov 20th. She did put a note on my file and laid it on my Dr.'s desk for her to review and have a nurse call me. We will see.
I feel like such an emotional fool. I just can not believe I could not quit crying. This has happened a lot w/ the pregnancy. But not so much w/ my past pregnancies. I wonder if it is because I know this will be my last and I want everything to go right.
Well again I can not believe I made a fool out of myself like that. Hormones!
No worries, friend. I almost cried with you because I totally understand. Just remember that the Lord is in control and He had today perfectly planned this way for a reason. Just be patient and enjoy the freedom of walking around and getting out again without having to sit all the time :)
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I totally understand your frustration. Going from room to room would have been very confusing and frustrating. Please do not even give it a second thought. You are pregnant and have had a doozey of a time this pregnancy. You are doing a wonderful job and the Lord is right there with you...,
Isaiah 43:
1 But now, sweet B, listen to the Lord who created you.
the one who formed you says,
“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
I have called you by name; you are mine.
2 When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.
3 For I am the Lord, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;
I gave Ethiopia and Seba in your place.
4 Others were given in exchange for you.
I traded their lives for yours
because you are precious to me.
You are honored, and I love you.
5 “Do not be afraid, for I am with you.
I will gather you and your children from east and west.
