Mar. 23, 2006

Well, Duh!

Posted in Grieving
I was driving in my car today - where I do my best thinking ;) (well, absolute best thinking is when I'm knitting - but driving is right up there!)

Anyway....I was driving in my car and wondering WHY I was having such a hard time recently.  Normally I think that February (when we actually lost Josh) will be hard.  But then I'm pleasantly surprised to find out that it's not so bad.  But as I reflect back of the three years since losing Josh - March is definitely a hard time.

And then it hit me - well, yeah...those were the hardest days.  Most of February of 2003 we didn't have a clue that our life was about to change forever.  We were caught up in the Lacy Peterson case and the crash of Space Shuttle Columbia.  We got the grandchildren together for pictures for my mom's birthday - and got the last, best picture of Josh.  But it was March 2003 that I barely remember.  I was in a fog of pain, guilt and confusion.  Those days were some of the hardest in my life - dare I say the hardest of my life.

Hmm...mystery solved.

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Day by Day....we strive to learn together, love each other and have some fun. Day By Day.... we strive to raise our boys to be knights and warriors for the Lord. Some days it's a struggle...

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Me - I like to read and knit. I've been a Christian for many years and loving learning about God and seeing the Lord work in our lives! I also post on my other blog, "Journaling Back To Joy"
DH - Is a theologically trained teacher of 4th graders at a Christian school. He loves astronomy, LOTR and playing with the kids! He is the funniest man I know.
J1 - 12 - our oldest. He came to live with us when he was 16 mos old and completely turned our lives inside out! While he is struggling with self-control right now - he is the one who can brighten the room just by smiling! He loves creating things from our recycling and anything that allows him to move (trampoline, skateboards, inline skates, etc)
J2 - 11 - our middle son. He is the one who I am currently homeschooling. He loves to create things from Legos and he loves movies. He would watch movies all day if I let him :( He has just had a major breakthrough in reading - for which we are praising the Lord!
J3 - 6 - my joy. He has a very tender heart for me and really works hard to make me happy. He loves to cuddle and is just learning about Legos. He wants to be with his big brothers so much, but the age difference is a big hurdle right now.
Joshie - 5/29/02 - 2/22/03 - Our surprise! Our only pregnancy that the Lord allowed - and we were blessed to have him for those short mos. We are all still grieving his loss - you'll hear alot about that from time to time. We look forward to getting to know him someday.

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