Day By Day - Oh God - save me from hormones

Mar. 13, 2006

Oh God - save me from hormones

I'm so incredibly sad. Nothing seems to pull me out of it. I know this is hormones - but I hate that I have such a big wound that is so easily hurt. I just want to cry...but the tears just won't come. Part of me knows that I need the release...part of me won't allow me to give in as I know it's 90% hormones.

Random *sad* thoughts that won't leave my mind...
...if Josh were alive - he'd be a great playmate for Jason (who is often alone).
...there will be no more babies in this house - I knew it, but now I accept it. Doesn't mean I'm happy about it.
...just because I'm a Christian doesn't mean God will take away this pain. But I pray He will every day.
...When my boys ask me who's birthday comes next (secretly hoping it will be theirs) - I wish I didn't have to say "Josh's - he would have been 4" I wish I could just not say it, but my heart insists.

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Mar. 13, 2006 - Praying for you!

Posted by EEEEMommy

Just a random blogger who is praying for you!
In Him,
Angel

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Mar. 13, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by homeschoolhelp

I just now prayed for you -- just wanted you to know. May God comfort you and give you peace.
Blessings,
Dianne

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Mar. 13, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by MySmokyMtnHomeschool

{{{{{Amy}}}}}}

I know nothing I can say will take away your pain, but know that I am praying for you.

Love,
Amy Beth

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Mar. 14, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by Leigh2

I am praying for you too. {{{{Hugs}}}}

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Mar. 15, 2006 - Untitled Comment

Posted by Janne

I am praying for you. (((HUGS)))

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Day by Day....we strive to learn together, love each other and have some fun. Day By Day.... we strive to raise our boys to be knights and warriors for the Lord. Some days it's a struggle...

Cast of Charaters

Me - I like to read and knit. I've been a Christian for many years and loving learning about God and seeing the Lord work in our lives! I also post on my other blog, "Journaling Back To Joy"
DH - Is a theologically trained teacher of 4th graders at a Christian school. He loves astronomy, LOTR and playing with the kids! He is the funniest man I know.
J1 - 12 - our oldest. He came to live with us when he was 16 mos old and completely turned our lives inside out! While he is struggling with self-control right now - he is the one who can brighten the room just by smiling! He loves creating things from our recycling and anything that allows him to move (trampoline, skateboards, inline skates, etc)
J2 - 11 - our middle son. He is the one who I am currently homeschooling. He loves to create things from Legos and he loves movies. He would watch movies all day if I let him :( He has just had a major breakthrough in reading - for which we are praising the Lord!
J3 - 6 - my joy. He has a very tender heart for me and really works hard to make me happy. He loves to cuddle and is just learning about Legos. He wants to be with his big brothers so much, but the age difference is a big hurdle right now.
Joshie - 5/29/02 - 2/22/03 - Our surprise! Our only pregnancy that the Lord allowed - and we were blessed to have him for those short mos. We are all still grieving his loss - you'll hear alot about that from time to time. We look forward to getting to know him someday.

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• Math: Modern Curr. Press
• Language Arts: Apple Tree, Pathway Readers & Phonics Pathway
• History: California History (Beautiful Feet)
• Science: Exploring Creation Through Astronomy
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