Day By Day

Aug. 22, 2006

Getting Real for a minute

Our pastor has been teaching us out of James for awhile - I truly love that book! It's so practical. Last Sunday the sermon was out of James 5:7-11 "Be Patient With One Another". But the last point was "Be Patient With God". And the Scriptures talked about the endurance of the prophets and Job.

The notes went like this...

B. Example of Job (v 11)

1. He lost everything.

2. He endured (showed great patience)

3. The outcome - The Lord's compassion and mercy

and my additional notes included Job 42:10 "The Lord restored the fortunes of Job when he prayed for his friends, and the Lord increased all that Job had twofold." I underlined the two part. I'm not sure what my thinking was - but I identify with some of the things Job dealt with - not all mind you.

Today I got a card in the mail. It was from my secret sister. It was a Get Well Soon card ... which sort of cracked me up. But then I read what she wrote inside.

Job 42:10

Dear Amy,

I think God has blessed you even more than Job - Job got a double portion from God; but you have been given a triple portion in your 3 boys - REJOICE!!

2 Samuel 12:20-22

Your pain of losing Joshua is real. But, because of your faith in Jesus you will be with him again - for all eternity! Take comfort!!

Only our Lord Jesus can heal your heart - trust Him to do so.

Love, Your Secret Sister

And, you know - I have thanked the Lord for giving me the boys. Not only did I have to keep going - get dressed every day and try to function - but they are/were so loving to me - drying my tears and giving me reason to laugh again.

But I've never considered the truth that He provided the blessing of them BEFORE the trial! Isn't that like God - He knew what I needed and provided it before I needed it!

Thanks Secret Sister for helping me to see that today!

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Mar. 23, 2006

Well, Duh!

Posted in Grieving

I was driving in my car today - where I do my best thinking ;) (well, absolute best thinking is when I'm knitting - but driving is right up there!)

Anyway....I was driving in my car and wondering WHY I was having such a hard time recently. Normally I think that February (when we actually lost Josh) will be hard. But then I'm pleasantly surprised to find out that it's not so bad. But as I reflect back of the three years since losing Josh - March is definitely a hard time.

And then it hit me - well, yeah...those were the hardest days. Most of February of 2003 we didn't have a clue that our life was about to change forever. We were caught up in the Lacy Peterson case and the crash of Space Shuttle Columbia. We got the grandchildren together for pictures for my mom's birthday - and got the last, best picture of Josh. But it was March 2003 that I barely remember. I was in a fog of pain, guilt and confusion. Those days were some of the hardest in my life - dare I say the hardest of my life.

Hmm...mystery solved.

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Mar. 21, 2006

Thoughts

Posted in Grieving

I've been bothered all day by the fact that I can't remember what color eyes Josh had. I can't bring myself to look at a photo to tell me either. How twisted is that??

I know where all his photos are in the house so that I can avoid looking at them. I don't dust them. I don't dust the shelf that has his picture and a few momentos.

Does this sound like a healthy person? Gosh, it's been 3 years since he died. I'm amazed how long loss takes to deal with. I started to type 'get over' but I deleted it as I am starting to believe there is no 'getting over' a loss like this.

Wow - I'm depressing tonight.

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Day by Day....we strive to learn together, love each other and have some fun. Day By Day.... we strive to raise our boys to be knights and warriors for the Lord. Some days it's a struggle...

Cast of Charaters

Me - I like to read and knit. I've been a Christian for many years and loving learning about God and seeing the Lord work in our lives! I also post on my other blog, "Journaling Back To Joy"
DH - Is a theologically trained teacher of 4th graders at a Christian school. He loves astronomy, LOTR and playing with the kids! He is the funniest man I know.
J1 - 12 - our oldest. He came to live with us when he was 16 mos old and completely turned our lives inside out! While he is struggling with self-control right now - he is the one who can brighten the room just by smiling! He loves creating things from our recycling and anything that allows him to move (trampoline, skateboards, inline skates, etc)
J2 - 11 - our middle son. He is the one who I am currently homeschooling. He loves to create things from Legos and he loves movies. He would watch movies all day if I let him :( He has just had a major breakthrough in reading - for which we are praising the Lord!
J3 - 6 - my joy. He has a very tender heart for me and really works hard to make me happy. He loves to cuddle and is just learning about Legos. He wants to be with his big brothers so much, but the age difference is a big hurdle right now.
Joshie - 5/29/02 - 2/22/03 - Our surprise! Our only pregnancy that the Lord allowed - and we were blessed to have him for those short mos. We are all still grieving his loss - you'll hear alot about that from time to time. We look forward to getting to know him someday.

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