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Today I have been thinking about my body.  Not in the normal critical way a woman does, but in a pensive way that refelcts God's desires for us physically.

I kept asking myself what I thought God was meaning by keeping my body like a temple.  I prayed upon this thought.  God lead me to the word respect.  Is it possible that we should respect our body as a temple of God?

I also evaluated my feelings about my weight.  I am embarrassed of my size, because of the ridicule I get when I leave my house, but is that the center of my issues?  I have been putting much thought into the health issues I have, that are aggravated by my sudden weight gain, but have in large part caused such.  I have been overeaten and I have chosen poorly, but not regularly.  I see my face, and I do not recognize myself, yet it is still me. 

I prayed that God would continue to help me in my efforts.  Then I heard myself pray something, I hadn't known was inside me.  I prayed that God would heal me of this ailment, before it kills me.  I want to grow old and see my children grow old and my grand children as well.  God is in control of my time here, but can I be shortening that time by my body size?  Every indicator says yes. 

I want to be around to guide my children and watch them grow.  I want to continue to grow with my husband.  I want to be a beacon of light pointing towards God, as much as possible.  Please God, transform my heart, mind, and body.  Be with me as I am trusting in you to work through me.  Put me in service to you, Lord, in whatever way you wish.  Amen.