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It isn't easy right now.  The night before last our water system went kaplooey.  Suffice it to say we haven't had a drop of water in 2 days.  So all the paint equipment is dried and ruined.  Our house smells like excrement, since we have no way to flush, and one of us has had diarrhea.  No one has bathed or brushed teeth so our smell is pretty gross as well.  The carpet cleaner I rented hasn't been touched, and we are being charged the exorbitent late fee.  Then there is the fact that I don't have convenience food, so we have nothing to cook that doesn't require water for cooking or clean-up, so we have racked up another $50 in food so far.  Luckily, I had some plastic cups from an old project.  So far we have spent over $100 and the water guy hasn't even show up to give us an estimate of the work yet!  We called several times yesterday.  They kept telling us they were coming, but int he end we got an apology call.  Thomas emphasized that there are 6 of us here without any water, not including the baby who is diapers of which we cannot wash our hands after changing.  They said they would be here first thing in the morning.  Well,, it's almos 9 and no one has come or called.  The girls have Dr appts today.  It will be a real smelly treat for our family to walk in today.  Even Thomas had to call off for work because he is stinky.  (My hubby is a stinky man! )  Hey, that means we are also losing wages.  I am losing my mind, I want to cry, we are behind on the work we need to accomplish before the open house and frankly I just want to go back to bed and pretend it isn't happening. 

I feel like one of y children whining about life and what isn't going my way.  I guess its ok here, as long I don't do it aloud.  But if its in my heart what does it matter?  The truth is I am aggravated, feeling frustrated & defeated, and down right melancholy. 

Dear Lord, I need you right now.  Please come into my heart and cleanse it of all of the bad and negative feelings.  I want to over flow with your love.  I want to be an excellent example of your love and faith.  I cannot do this without you.  Please come.