To my precious Jessica,

I just can't believe that this is your 20th birthday!  My, where has the time gone?  The last time I saw you and held you in my arms, you were a beautiful 3 month old.  But, the LORD had much better plans for you than this ol' broken-down world of ours and you have been with Him since then.

But, I'm only human and I miss you ... I think about you everyday and can't wait to give you an eternity's worth of hugs and kisses!!  I can still feel you...I know exactly how your little body felt when I held you, when I lifted you to kiss you and when your little fingers wrapped around mine.

20 years - can that be true?  

I hope that you don't mind that we don't visit your grave very often.  I feel guilty about it, but once I get there I realize that YOU aren't there at all.

We've kept our promise to you...Jasper and Jenna have always known about you, your picture is always out (it was even in the magazine I write for!!) and we have always spoken freely about you as a family.  You would be so proud of those sisters of yours and I know you would be a fun-loving part of all those teenaged giggles that go on upstairs late at night! 

I can't wait to see you, Honey.  Tell your other 2 brothers/sisters, that were concieved but never held, that Mommy and Daddy loves them, too.  We'll bring a pretty Fall bouquet out to you soon.  

I love you, Mommy<>< 

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Posted by tn3jcarter

I can't imagine losing a precious little 3 month old. Oh me.... Thanks for sharing your daughter and allowing us to think of her as well on this special day.
Blessings,
Nancy in KY

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Posted by HSBCompanyBlog

Crying my EYES out! Happy Birthday sweet Jessica.

-gena

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Posted by ejoyce,ink

I can't imagine how hearbreaking it must be to say "goodbye for now" to your baby. How precious that she is with the Lord. It must make heaven very real for your family.Thank you for sharing this very sweet remembrance. Eleanor

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Posted by creech7s

Thanks for sharing your daughter's birthday with us. We lost 2 during months 4 and 5 of pregnancy, so bittersweet, but you put it so sweetly - the Lord does have better plans than this old, hard world, and we will all be together for a long, long eternity thanks to His love. I will keep your other children in our prayers, too, as they must have a sorrow for those they know have gone ahead of them. Thanks for the sweet reminder of how precious life is. God bless.

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Posted by devdoordeborah

Thank you for sharing your precious Jessica with us. I grieve with you the loss of your baby, and I celebrate with you the eternal glory she is in and has been in for 20 years! I was so blessed that you allowed me to include her in the article in the magazine. And, many moms out there who read about these precious babies who are now in the Hands of God were moved closer to the God who holds them. Heaven is just a heartbeat away. May every heartbeat, beat for Him who gives us life! The great news is that death is not the end for the believer, but just the beginning of LIFE! We are swallowed up by Life, therefore, we can say with God, precious is the death of His loved ones.

Love you dear one,

Deborah

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Posted by JenIG

Oh Kim, I am so sorry.
love jen

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Posted by

Hi, Read this:

http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/jayfromcleveland/37520/#c57138

Want to get together? We'll be at AiG again I think in the same hotel as before. We are going to Cleveland though too during that time. How far are ya from there?

Edited by TOSPUBLISHER on Oct. 26, 2005 at 7:11 PM

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Posted by iluvtheland

I have been thinking about my precious little Ellora Faye a lot lately...my little granddaughter who lived for only 10 days. I've shared parts of her story on my blog, and often worry that with time I may forget her. In my heart I know that I will never forget holding her sweet little hand, and the way she looked, or the way she would stick her cute little toes out at an angle...all those little things...even the smell of her. Yet I still have worried about forgetting. Your post, 20 years later, makes me all the more sure that I don't need to worry about forgetting her. She will always be a part of my life and always be my sweet little miracle....
Thanks for the encouragement,
Kathy

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