• Aug. 14, 2006
....and then there are those HORMONES! yikes!
Okay, so I know I'm not the ONLY woman to ever suffer from pregnancy-induced (I hate using that word in the same sentence with 'pregnancy'!) idiocy, but this morning I just wanted to SCREAM at myself. I maintained my calm, as I had my 4 littles AND my mother with me, and no one usually looks kindly on people who throw hissy-fits in the doctor's office, ha!
I had a routine sonogram scheduled this morning, followed by my regular weekly OB appointment. I hadn't seen my OB, the good Dr. G, in several weeks, because I *just* began my weeklies (37 weeks this week, woohoo!), and last visit I saw her partner. I was actually DREADING the whole appointment. I always LOVE to see the sonograms, but we like to be surprised about our babies' genders, and my mom was coming along, and she always makes a BIG deal trying to get me to change my mind while we are there----or several times she has actually suggested that we let the sono tech tell HER what the sex is, and she will just not tell anyone!!!!!! (AS IF, Mom dear!).
I was also thinking it would be stressful for several other reasons: all 4 precious-but-excitable-already-born offspring were also coming with us, to see the new sibling in utero. I knew, too, that the dr. would be starting in on me with the whole "You-really-need-to-just-schedule-the-c section" lecture, and I get pretty intimidated by her, even with all of my research and the armada of knowledge I have used to arm myself against her persuasive and NEGATIVE arguments!!! (For those of you who may be new to my blog and my life, I have had 3 c sections, and we are following the Lord's leading on a path to a wonderful, successful VBA3Cs with our upcoming birth. Not something we are taking lightly, we have definitely done the homework! We have hired a highly-experienced midwife who will labor with us at home. We had originally planned to go on to the hospital to deliver, departing once I reach about 8 cm.....but we have since felt lead of the Lord that if all is progressing normally and well, we will just STAY HOME and have a baby!! Shhhhh! Don't tell Dr. G! We're holding onto her to placate her ;) heehee). Plus I was also scheduled for a lovely GBS test swab today, and I knew the dr. planned to do a cervical check, which *I* planned to refuse! (WHY do they wanna check my dilation when they wanna cut me open anyhow??!!).
At any rate, I was greatly distressed to be informed upon my arrival at the dr's office----after the usual hubbub of getting all of us out the door looking halfway decent (and taking longer than normal because I suddenly realized I hadn't shaved in over a week, and I was gonna be SEEN, for goodness sake, so I had to do the "full service" shower, instead of the quick rinse-off, haha!)---that my appointment was not for TEN-fifteen this morning, but was for TWO-fifteen this afternoon!!!! AARRGGHHHH!!!!! All I could think about was my precious-as-gold-$3/gal-gas that I had wasted driving downtown to the appointment! Ouch!!!
After I calmed everyone's disappointment (and mild irritation, in the case of the Mom figure!), I recognized on the way home that just MAYBE the Lord was answering my prayers. I had been praying since yesterday for GRACE to get through the c-section lecture with Dr. G this morning, and I was truly dreading it---so much so that I was in tears at 4 am with hubby as he was leaving for work. WHY then am I often soooo slow to recognize His salvation when it comes in neatly-wrapped opportunities for growth?? One week's doctor lecture, side-stepped!!! Whew, THANKS, Lord!
.....now if I could just do something about these crazy hormones!!!! :)
Comments
• Aug. 14, 2006
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Posted by KayinPA
Awww! I am relieved for you! So glad that I am not in your position. :)
• Aug. 14, 2006
bon bons
Posted by PennyRaine
yes dear Tanya that is what you need to solve those hormone jitters, sit back, relax, and eat some bon bons! love you!
• Aug. 15, 2006
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Posted by mamarussell
Hugs, dear Tanya! How did the appt go? I am not happy with my OB and am dreading the labor. Wish I could find a CNM in the area but there are none to be found.
We are due so closer together, I think of you as my "pregnancy sister". Hugs and hang in there, it will all be over eventually!
• Aug. 15, 2006
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Posted by Anonymous
Yeah! I'm so glad you are blogging!
Hormones? What are hormones? Nah, can't be that ;)
Jamie
www.princessruby.blogspot.com
• Aug. 15, 2006
I'm so sorry
Posted by Littlebitofeverythingmama
T. I know this has been such a stressful situation for you. I didn't know that you had changed plans - woohoo!! I will pray for you in this direction. That is great! We'll talk more via email. So, do you just wait until next week to go? Or did you have to reschedule for later this week? Hugs, C
• Aug. 15, 2006
Your Doing GREAT
Posted by Brandy
Tanya,
Love your blog!! Sorry I am so behind on writing back. Stay strong. I know how hard it is especially in this last days of pregnancy. I am praying for you and your delivery. Home birth was such a blessing and such an amazing gift, and I can't wait until we are sharing our stories together!
Ahhh then not to have to fight anymore! :-)
Seriously love the blog! You are obviously a gifted writer. I feel like a part of your stories!
