• Aug. 15, 2006
WHAT was God thinking??!!
Deuteronomy 6: 4-9, 25
" 4 Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one.
5 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.
6 These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts.
7 Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up.
8 Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads.
9 Write them on the door frames of your houses and on your gates.
....25 And if we are careful to obey all this law before the Lord our God, as he has commanded us, that will be our righteousness."
Do you ever just look at your children, and your house, and the piles of laundry, and the endless errands and chores, and the brand new, enticing schoolbooks awaiting this year---and then look in the MIRROR and wonder "WHAT in the world was God thinking??!!!! *I* can't do this!!".
I think about that every day. Daily I think I am no good at this role, no good as a mommy, no good as a wife----heck, I often think I am a lousy daughter of God, which makes me a lousy Christian! I fail daily, miserably---fail God, fail my husband, fail my children, fail myself........
....but ONE thing I just keep on doing WITHOUT FAIL----just do the Next Thing. Today has been a pretty awful day, a day full of bickering, strife, sass, disobedience.....several times I have fleetingly thought, "WHERE could I go to just escape for a few minutes??? ...and WHO would come here and stay with these hooligans??".....but in my frustration, in my hugely pregnant, hormonal, emotional, and tense state of mind, I recognize that somehow HE thinks I CAN do this. Not because Tanya is anybody special, not because I am brilliant or wise or even (definitely not!) very patient, but because I am HIS and this is where He has called me.
"My" righteousness is as filthy rags, but my OBEDIENCE to Him is righteousness. I don't need to BE righteous, that last verse of Deut. chapter 6 says all I have to do is obey. Sometimes that is the hardest thing to do! Today, I don't feel like doing it! I feel like throwing a tantrum with all the under-9-yrs-old crowd that live here! ....but somehow, I didn't. My heart WANTS to obey Him. I want to be that daily, everywhere, at all times example of His righteousness to these small people who are watching my every move, listening to every tone, and gauging every reaction I make. OUCH!
Soooo, in light of today, all bets are off. I am just going to obey the best I can, and do the Next Thing. If the list of tasks on the fridge is accomplished before the baby arrives, Great! If the new schoolbooks get opened in the next week or two, that's Wonderful!....otherwise, if anybody needs me, I will be here putting out whatever fire is currently raging (or sparking, or smoldering!), and just doing the Next Thing.
Comments
• Aug. 15, 2006
wow!!
Posted by LittleEblingsAcademy
Well said....
:o)
Thanks!! I needed that.
Now.... Back to my fires......
In Him, Beckie
• Aug. 15, 2006
Oh, I needed this one!!
Posted by Littlebitofeverythingmama
I had one of those days. One, where I felt like throwing a fit. I did cry a lot with Big P!! He just held me and told me that if he loved me that much, could I even imagine how much Christ loved me. My oldest children were bickering insessently (sp?) and it was driving me insane. I want so bad for them to be kind to one another - so I blowup! LOL Without Christ, I'm nothing, but He assures me that with Him, I am His child!! :) I needed this one today - thank you T!!!
• Aug. 15, 2006
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Posted by KayinPA
Yep! I have asked God, Why did you give me these children....do you want them ruined???? But I have to trust that God in His great wisdom knew what he was doing and do the next thing.....which reminds me I need to go vacuum!
• Aug. 16, 2006
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Posted by Anonymous
Like usual, I could have written what you wrote...we always go through these things at the same time!
Jamie
