Somehow I imagined that at least for a part of my vacation I would have times of going off by myself to sit on a quiet hillside and just sit...to think about my life. I've only gone off by myself a couple of times but had to be back either at 12:30 for dinner or to meet Oma at 4pm. Maybe one morning this week I will be able to do that.

Neither Monika or Oma can just sit without talking. I like to sit without talking. Bryan and I could do that. When we used to sit on my front porch...it was so relaxing.  The past (sigh).

Looking at all the pictures of myself. I hate the way I look. this weight has got to come off of me~!