Thank you all for the warm support and prayers.  We sure needed them!  Little did I know things were going to get wilder before they settled down.  After attending an OB appointment the doctors said it could be a while before things "got going" with the miscarriage and I'd likely need to come back to the hospital for some medication. 

     Well, things got started, unfortunately, on their own a mere hour or two later AT THE MALL on Tuesday while I was standing in line at Starbucks with my three big kids.  I naively thought I could get their soccer gear at Dick's.  Suddenly I was blacking out over the coffee of the week stand.  People were helping me sit down, handing me their cell phones.  Mall security came and though I said I was fine and didn't want intervention, they insisted upon a medic arriving and taking me by ambulance to the ER when they realized I was losing a lot of blood. I guess I realized it too since it was all happening very quickly and getting back in my car would not be desirable at that point.  Thank the Lord my husband was reachable by cell phone.  He often isn't in his school building on base.  I tried to stay upbeat and calm for the kids and said, "Hey you guys get to ride in an ambulance!  Now this is an educational experience, huh!"  I had convinced the paramedics to let the kids come even though they're not really supposed to let that many extras on.  I couldn't fathom leaving my children standing on a curb, bewildered, with mall security waiting for Dad.  He met us at the ER. 

    I guess I still thought this was all just a normal thing and bummer timing.  How embarrasing!   I should have stayed home.  But my bleeding continued in large amounts.  I began to faint again and started shaking uncontrollably.  Suddenly 9 people were in the room buzzing around calling out blood pressure numbers.  They gave me a blood transfusion, IV's and finally decided to take me to emergency surgery.  The scariest moment was when the doctor said, "If we can't stop the bleeding, worse case scenario, we could have to do a hysterectomy."  I said, "Please don't."  He said they'd be as gentle and careful as possible, but it was the very last resort, he just had to tell me it was a possiblility.  When I woke up five hours later, the first thing I asked was, "Am I all here still?"  Everything was fine.  I spent a night getting poked way too many times for blood counts, but was released the next morning.  A kind nurse had driven our children to a friend's house at the end of her shift.  And God's hand was on us.  I asked the surgeon that morning, "Was this really an emergency or could I have handled this at home?"  He said, "No, you were definitely hemorraging and going into shock.  It's a good thing you were here."  I guess God's timing was right, after all.  In my independent (stubborn?) nature, I would have tried to stick it out at home.  I guess I need to go back to Starbucks and thank them for their kindness.  They had given my a free iced latte in the middle of everything!  

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Posted by CountryMomof4

Goodness, You've had quite a week. My heart cries for you for all you've been through. I am SO GLAD you are OK. I've said it before, but the worst thing about blogging is that we can't physically be there for our friends in need. Instead of dinners and help watching kids .... you get my prayers through cyberspace. I pray that God sends you an abundance of help and comfort ... and an extra dose of his perfect love. With prayers and blessings, Karlie

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Posted by chickadee

my goodness! what an experience. everything worked out for the best thankfully. i hope you will be feeling better soon.

melissa

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Posted by nsremom

Unbelievable. What a story! I'm so impressed at the people at Starbucks for helping you out and the kind ambulance people letting your kids ride along. Seems like people went out of their way to help you. Bless them!

And wow, I will definately pray for a speedy recovery. Keep us posted.

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Posted by mrssulli

Praise the Lord for your stubborness at that moment! I'm so thankful there were others around to help you in such a time of distress. A very scary experience, and having your little ones around to try to keep from hysterics was amazing! Hopefully you will now be able to move on with your healing process. You will still be in my prayers!

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Posted by quietcajun

My m/c was six years ago and reading this made me begin to cry remembering the trauma of it. AFTER I delivered Sarah at home, I went into the hosp. and was literally bleeding into my shoes. Five weeks later I began to hemmorhage (how DO you spell that word?) again and ended up having an emergency D & C that took nearly an hour (when they said it would be 20 minutes) and was much more pain afterward than i expected.

I am so sorry for your loss and I will be praying for you.

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Posted by javamamma

Oh my. Thank Jesus for Him seeing us through everything we go through. I'll be praying for you and for quick healing both physically and emotionally. How are your kids doing with everything? On a lighter note, I knew Starbuck's was the "good guys"!

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Posted by shallbe

Oh Christa! I had no idea that you were going through all of this! I am so sorry! These are the times when long-distance SUCKS, because I am not there to help a friend in need. The Lord does have a hedge of protection around you! Don't beat yourself about being "out"..like you said, if you were home, you could have been in real trouble. I call that Divine Intervention!! My prayers are for your continued strength and health, as well as His hand in your ability to have that sixth child (praise Him for keeping you intact!)
I found this article http://www.nogreaterjoy.org/index.php?id=57&tx_ttnews[swords]=seeing%20through%20a%20glass%20darkly&tx_ttnews[tt_news]=61&tx_ttnews[backPid]=118&cHash=a850dff827 Perhaps it will inspire you to drive forward in what you do best, which is raising your children now, with the eternal perspective.

Love ya, girl. Hang in there!

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Posted by dawilli

You poor thing!!!
I too, would've tried to get through it at home... been there, done that... even though they told me to go in and have the miscarriage at the hospital, I just thought 'ick, I don't want witnesses to that'! It never would've occurred to me that I would hemorrage from that. What a blessing you were out in public, as embarrassing as it may have been initially...
I'm so glad you're doing okay, and you're all there,
you hang in there,
ali

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