Knights Becoming and a Lady in Waiting

God is In Control

I completely forgot to praise God in my "Work Widow" entry.  (Okay, at the time I was trying to be funny on a lack of sleep, but still... ).

See, this was supposed to be one of the most stressful weeks of my life.  Monday we were supposed to be at the YMCA all day (9:30 to 11:30 and 4 to 7) for swimming.  Tuesday was my grocery shopping/ birthday planning/ school catch-up/ co-op planning/ pull-my-hair-out-what-was-I-thinking day.  Wednesday was swimming in the morning and some errands in the afternoon.  Today, though... today was supposed to be the start of our new co-op (which I was a board member of) and I was supposed to teach sign language at 9am.  We were then supposed to be there until 12:30, eat in the car, and go to music, which runs from 1:15 to 2:00.  Run home for naps and make dinner, then Prince Dannyboy was supposed to go to Funshop (a parent-child thing) in the evening.  And Saturday was supposed to be Prince Berryboy's big birthday bash.

I quit the co-op while I was PMSing.  While I'm no longer PMSy, this still seems like a good decision.  It was time for me to step away-- and this has never been my "baby", even though I ended up surrogate birthing it. :p  I'm still signed up to teach sign language, but now that we can't possibly follow the schedule I had put together... I'm just going to take it one week at a time.  No music this afternoon (which is the one thing I'll miss).  I didn't spend all day Monday at the pool.  We've postponed the birthday bash.

I am-- rejuvenated.  Odd, that, after six days of fever and less sleep than I'd like, but I am.  Here is the verse that brought it all home this morning:

Some sat in darkness and the deepest gloom,

prisoners suffering in iron chains,

for they had rebelled against the words of God

and despised the counsel of the Most High.

So He subjected them to bitter labor;

they stumbled and there was no one to help.

Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble,

and He saved them from their distress.

Psalm 107:10-13

I was depressed and bound up by all the commitments I had made without thinking (again).  I couldn't make myself quit anything, feeling obligated to finish what I started.  I didn't listen to God when He whispered for me to rest, to focus on my family, and to let go.

So I had a rough week.  DH was gone.  Kids were sick.  I was sick.  Things seemed to pile up and there was no one here to help me.

Last night I gave up and cried to God.  I wailed, I sobbed, I yielded.

Today I feel almost 100%.  I have one child in recovery and one still sick, but the sickness doesn't bother me as much.  I am not distressed.

Yes, God disciplines us... but oh, how loving a discipline it is!

Haha

10:43 PM, Sep. 21, 2006 .. Posted by 3menandalittlelady

Ain't life great? Heehee. You are too funny!(refering to your previous post-Work Widow) Thanks for getting back to me! Sounds like you've been busy! Have a great weekend! Blessings
Beth

BTW-I too have trouble being a really good friend to more than one person at a time-I'm not sure why, but I think it has something to do with my scatter brain. But that's me.

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8:58 AM, Oct. 7, 2006 .. Posted by WaitingontheLord

Some days we have to get to the breaking point so we can let go and let God! :)