Chesapeake Sailor Girl - Panic attacks and GED test

Mar. 12, 2008 - Panic attacks and GED test

Okay, so right now I really wish I wasn’t homeschooled through high school, I mean really, really wish. I am taking my GED tomorrow and I am scared to death, like seriously. I want to stop time right now so tomorrow never comes. I have taken two practice tests and I have been studying every spare minute I have. Maybe I will mysteriously come down with a relapse of the flu tonight, which could happen couldn’t it? Everyone says I shouldn't be nervous because my scores were so high on my practice tests. I am not worried about not passing; I am positive that I will pass. I am worried about not getting the score that my mom wants me to get, I’m worried about forgetting something important and I won’t be able to take the test, I’m worried about getting lost, and I am worried about not getting there on time and not being able to take the test. I wish it was already done and over with. Plus I found out that the school secretary forgot to mail the check for us to take our tests to the GED place, and they say I am the only trustworthy person, so I had to pick it up at school today and I have to give it to the GED person tomorrow morning. I have been carrying a $120 check around today, and if I forget it Jordan, Blake, and I cannot take our GED tests. I have this pit in my stomach and I am about ready to cry, I can’t do this. I seriously cannot do this tomorrow. I am a nervous wreck, a serious nervous wreck. I have decided that I will not homeschool my kids through high school; I will not put them through this. I am leaving here at 6:30 am tomorrow and the test starts at 7:30. I should be done sometime between 1:00 and 3:00 pm. I would honestly rather jump off a bridge into freezing cold water right now, instead of having to take my GED tomorrow. Anyways, I just looked at the time and it is 8:17 pm, so I have to go study and go to bed, even though I know the studying won’t help and I will definitely not be able to sleep tonight. I have the words “I can’t do this” running through my head right now, I think I am having a panic attack, or I am going to have one. And I am definitly going to be sick. Ciao, Sara Belle

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