Did I ever say how crazy this thing called life is?  I can't decide whether it's totally stupid and I should just jump off a cliff or not.  Yep, it's totally crazy.  So what do I do now?  Wait, I guess.  Not much else to do.  Keep busy.  Yeah.  I can do that.  It's so weird having part of my life ripped away.  Everything was so normal.  Now everything's still so normal, but it's only half of what it used to be.  This is called talking in riddles.  I highly recommend it.  It never fails to make me smile.

So spring formal is tonight.  I know what I'm going to wear but I still haven't figured out what to do with my hair.  Spring Formals are like that.  We girls spend a lot of time guessing.  It's half the fun, really.  

Well, if you ever come visit my blog, I hope you don't forget me.  It's going to be a long wait until after European tour.  Shall I take lots of pictures?  Of course I shall.  Lots and lots of pictures.  And I'll keep them all for myself.  Nobody else will want them.  But I'm going to have fun in Europe and nothing will stop me, not even disasters, pain, guilt and sadness. 

Keep smiling, everybody.  You know that's very important.  Just keep smiling.  Laugh as much as possible.  There's nothing like it.  It doesn't matter if life keeps throwing you curveballs.  Smile, laugh, joke and keep going.  Don't lose your heart to it and don't go cold and impenetrable.  Pain is important.  It's how we grow.  We learn to live and to forgive others and forgive ourselves.  I think the last one is the hardest.  It's not a mask.  We learn to live in different areas.  All my pain goes here, and all my happiness, here.  And even in the tough times, the happiness compartment is still a lot bigger than the sadness compartment.   So smile, everybody!  Live life, because that's what you're meant to do.

"To live would be an awfully BIG adventure!"

Living in spite of everything,

The Chocolate Catt