As of Monday I will have exactly 2 school years until I am legally on my own and responsible for my life... That's a little scary, right? I think I know what college to go to, but if I major in music instead of psychology I will go to ANOTHER college instead. And the only way I can afford my top choice is to get incredibly good scores on the PSAT in October. It's a one-time chance, and it's scary. I really want, no, NEED to go to a Christian college- not just affiliated with religion, but one that thrives on God. My dad doesn't understand this... sigh... but as I become an adult I want to be somewhere that pushes me to be closer with God, instead of stayin out all night going to keg parties and getting high. 

But I struggle with having faith just in my regular life, so it's so hard for me to have it about my future. Please tell me someone else struggles with this... sigh.