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Confessions of a Homeschool Dad
Jul. 17, 2006
Running Until Morning, pt. 5
THE DOWNSIDE TO COMPANY
Of course, having company isn't always a good thing. I don't know if my family doesn't realize that they're on my back or that they take it for granted, but they sure do some things up there that make life difficult for me.
For instance, maybe my kids are being a little rebellious or disobedient one day. Usually, that means that they're up there jumping around, climbing all over. Sometimes even covering my eyes, so I can't see where we're going.
Do you know how hard it is to run with a shifting load? Let's just say that it ain't easy. And then to try and do it blind!
But we get past those days and one of my kids may snuggle up to me and tell me that they love me. And I can tell that they mean it (they're too young yet to use that because they want something).
It's hard carrying all that love, but I always feel like Superman when they're snuggling up to me, so I can handle it.
The odd thing is that the biggest difficulty when I'm running is often my wife. I remember one time recently when we were talking about "feelings" (not my favorite topic), I had said the standard, "when you do this, it makes me feel like this" thing.
The amazing thing to me is that she actually said that she didn't care that was how it made me feel. She was going to continue doing her thing anyway.
It's moments like those that, if I'm lucky, I'll just stumble. Usually, I feel like taking them all off my back, putting them on the ground, and running off somewhere to wait for the darkness.
But I don't. I don't know if it's just a sense of duty, of wanting to follow through on my commitment to God, or that I've been in the darkness before and it isn't pleasant.
TOMORROW: DON'T LET THE DARKNESS OVERCOME YOU
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