Creative Homeschool Exerience

Forgiveness and My Testimony

Matthew 6:14-15For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

   I don't know why but today I have just been thinking of forgiveness and what it means to me. It just seemed to pop in my head today LOL. Maybe God is trying to tell me something I don't know about yet?! Anyway I was thinking of what it means to forgive someone of wrongs done to you and what not. I remember before I was saved I had a lot of hatred and anger in me. Sure I did good things but I held grudges like my life depended on it And each time someone would do something to hurt me I would build a little more of a wall I kept around me so I couldn't be hurt any more. I had such a wall around me that no one could penetrate it. I was closed off to pretty much everyone in my life.

   I remember feeling so angry and then wonder why I didn't have anyone to really reach out too. I remember thinking why is all this happening to me why me? It wasn't till after the birth of my oldest son that I began to really feel God's presents. I remember looking into the eye's of my new born soon and feeling all this love for this tiny little person. (ok so he wasn't really tiny at 10 lbs 7 oz but you get what I mean LOL) and it was then that I thought well I guess their is a God (before this I had turned away from God and denied his existence). It was also then my heart melted and my wall started crumbling and I realized what my unforgiveness had done to me.

   Little by little my heart was warming to God. I knew of God but had not yet met with Him. But I began to realize what forgiveness was. It wasn't about letting the people who hurt me get away with what they did. In fact it really had nothing to do with that person at all. Forgiveness I realized was more for myself.

    When I started to let go of all those hurt feelings and let my guard down to let love in I felt this huge weight lift from my shoulders and heart. Forgiveness was for me to just let go and let God. After I realized this I began to let God a little more in my life. Then I met someone I worked with and she began talking to me about God. Not in a preachy way but in an informative way. I never felt like she was trying to as they say "Bible Thump" me LOL. But she would just talk and I would listen. Then I don't remember exactly the month or day it happened but my eyes were opened and I finally let God in my life completely. I don't think I have ever felt so much love in my life. I love my hubby and my children but this was completely different. Soon after I became saved.

    When I first started reading the Bible and watching Christian programs my hubby thought I lost my marbles LOL. He considered himself a Christian man but he knew I wasn't a believer for a long time and certainly never did the things I was doing now. At first he was a bit freaked out about my new found love. But then I started to pray for him and talking with him about what the Bible said and this and that and then he too was opened to the Lord. We both were baptized together. Sure we have our faults but we strive to listen to God and we have each other to help focus each other. So for me that is what forgiveness really is. For myself and letting God in. So learning about forgiveness actually brought me to the Lord.

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6:13 PM, Jan. 5, 2007 .. Posted by homeschoolhighlites

It was a blessing to read your testimony tonight and thank you for sharing your lessons learned about forgiveness!
I wanted to let you know I posted that "tomato soup cupcake" recipe in the comments section of my blog.

Have a great weekend!

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6:16 PM, Jan. 5, 2007 .. Posted by homeschoolhighlites

I just noticed you misspelled "Creative" in your blog title. Unless "Creatvie" is your last name, in which case, never mind! :o)

Thank You

10:42 PM, Jan. 10, 2007 .. Posted by HomeForHim

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I wish more people would feel confident enough to share theirs. I totally understand how it didn't happen just overnight. But instead, it took a time for God to draw you close enough to hear His voice...through your friend, and events. Glad I stopped by! I'm looking forward to reading more soon.

Many Blessings,
Deborah