Nov. 25, 2007 - Guilt |
Ok, today's subject consists of whining, pity party for me and general yuck. So, stop now if you don't want to be either bored to death or annoyed with me or bummed with me...
Here goes:
I have been talking about Church A for some time now. I have been disappointed by several situations and basically have had it. Then yesterday I get this really nice letter and an offer of help for something from Church A. So what happens?? I feel extremely guilty. Why? Because I have been a negative Nilly and have been complaining. Does it take away the other junk that's happened? No, but I see a glimmer of true Christianity here. **sigh**
Second guilt situation: I am a poor example for my kids. I have no desire to attend church at this point. Anywhere. And, whose problem is it?? Totally mine. Meela wants to go somewhere but I just can't do it right now. I know it's wrong. I know I need the fellowship, I know I need to hear the Word, I know all the right things to do. However, I am not being the person I should be especially for my kids. Ugh. Anyone who can pray for me with this---I'd appreciate it. Just to expand---every week Sunday (afternoon) to Friday I think to myself-this is it. This week we go somewhere....no excuses, then Saturday comes and I say forget it. What is wrong with me??????
Guilt number three: Ties in with above. I know all the right things to do and what should be done BUT I still choose to do the wrong thing. How do I get the desire to go back to church? I love the Lord so much. I feel like I am a major disappointment to Him though. I read the Word (not as much as I should), I pray and praise Him all the time but I can't get my self out of bed to worship Him at church?? Ugh..
So, if you made it this far, I apologize. This is a definite vent post. Thanks for "listening". I am going to go cry for a while now......
Prayer requests:
1. My attitude.
2. Unspoken
Praises:
1. That our Lord would love me unconditionally even though I don't deserve one little bit of it.
2. My kids and hubby who also love me through all my garbage.
3. My mom.
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Nov. 27, 2007 - Untitled Comment |
| Posted by Laura |
Lisa,
Read ROMANS!! "There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus."
Love and prayers,
Laura |
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Dec. 7, 2007 - Untitled Comment |
| Posted by Laura |
Hey Lisa,
I tried to email you the other day but it wouldn't go through. Can you email me? I have something to share w/ you.
Laura |
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Dec. 18, 2007 - PRAYER |
| Posted by HeatherC |
Just wanted to let you know I will be praying for you and your church situation!! And thankfully for all of us, the Lord loves and forgives you all the time!! Keep watching for his guidance it's there!!
Praying for you,
Heather |
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