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My husband call tonight from work and he ask me what is it I want to do six months from now, a year from now? He is reading a book that has to do with not having regrets. I didn't have an answer for him.

I am at a place in my life where I feel like I am at blank where it comes to me. I am happy doing what I feel called by God to do. I am becoming a wife that honors my husband, someone who school the girls, someone who spends meaningful time as a family and the goals I do have are to do with the girls eduation. My thoughts are of providing them with their needs and also Lord willing their desires. Please don't get me wronge I do not want to induldge their every desire. I do want to be able to help mold them into young ladies who have a grounded sense of what God has called them to do. To know who they are and to have a passion to live. Other then that I could not answer his question. 

All that I have said, has to do with my family and nothing of it has to do with just me. I am not saying that I am unselfish. At times I am very selfish (I am a only child!). I just don't have any personal goals for myself. Taking a good look at myself I see a woman who has let herself go. I am ashamed that I have let my weight get to where it is. I do need help with self disapline. If you are reading this, would you please say a prayer for me that I may become more discipline with my eating habits.