Have you ever been completely overwhelmed and utterly frustrated; wanting to give in and give up?  I'm there... I mean, I'm really there...  Life has been taking some unexpected turns, and it seems as if everything is piling up and I feel as though I'm drowning in the middle of a storm at sea.  I just have no idea what I'm supposed to do next...
Come to me my child...
...it's just that overwhelming.  It seems as if I have so much to do... too much to do
I won't give you more than you can handle...
...and even though my husband has been trying to help, I feel as if I'm alone...
I'm here...
...and that no one understands how I feel.
I know you because I fashioned you...

I was looking back on my post from last Independence Day in 2005 (click The Countdown to read).  Funny how life changes... and doesn't... I thought something would be different by now... 
A lot has changed...
I'd hoped something would be different.
YOU are different...

A year ago, I started a "countdown", unsure of what would be happening.  I began to get things ready in my home for something to come.  Since then, nothing has happened as I thought it would.  I got pregnant and was blessed by another boy...
a gift for you...
...we put our home up for sale but have had very little for lookers...
It's not time yet...
We've had some other interesting things develop as well, which have come totally unexpectedly...
Not to me...
... and while we know it's from the Lord, we don't know what will happen next...
I have plans for you to prosper...
It seems I've tried to make plans, but they keep getting changed.
I have plans for you...
It's so hard to be so unsure about the future sometimes.
...plans to give you hope and a future...
I know things will be okay, but how long must we wait?
In my timing, my child...

Sometimes life is just difficult.  I know that it's not supposed to be easy, but sometimes it feels as if it's one thing after another... that you just keep getting shaken until you can't stand...
I want you on your knees...
that there's just no where else to turn...
but ME...
...and the pit is so deep...
I can still reach you...
that you have to look up...
Exactly...

I guess it's time to take a seat in the back, and let the driver do what He does best... drive...

Heavenly Father,
I have no idea what you have in store for us right now... and I'm unsure of what You want from me.  Please guide me and help me.  Lord, I pray that I would consume myself with You and drown in Your love and peace. 
In Jesus' name,
Amen.