I'm not sure exactly how to write this post.  I'm not sure how I feel about all the emotions and thought I'm experiencing, and have experienced over the past several months.  For those of you who have been following things in my life, you know that things have been anything but "calm and peaceful" for me.  I've had a struggle going on in my heart for some time now between things of this world and the Lord's calling on my life.  It seems the more I look, the more confused I get.  One minute thinking one way, only to change again.

Life is crazy in our home right now, and our hearts are following suit.  My beloved husband is working so hard to do everything the Lord has called him to do, and to be honest... I've been too busy "doing my own thing" to really be the helpmate I'm supposed to be.  This has hurt me so much, as he's my greatest earthly treasure.  I know he knows I love him and has supported me beyond "all reason" in every ridiculous idea I've come up with.  I know that he believes in all the things I've started and the things I've yet to complete... but I just feel as if the Lord is telling me that it's not my "season" right now.

As I listen to the kids arguing and tempers rising... my second earthly treasures in my children, have some "polishing up" to shine.  I've been "getting by" as a homeschool mom, and I know that in God's eyes... "getting by" is NOT an option.

Over the time I've been here, I've been so blessed by so many.  Some of you have emailed me, and the letters have brought tears to my eyes.  I'm continually humbled by how the Lord used someone so confused, lost, frustrated and disorganized, to bring others closer to Him.  The Clean Heart Clean Home Challenge took on a "life of its own" last April, and with it coming again... I'm just not sure how much my family will once again take the "left overs". I've been trying to revise the old organizer, along with the devotional (Create in Me a Clean Heart!), but every time I seem to pull it together, some thing happens and it falls apart.  I feel like a little child picking up a handful of toys, only to get too full and then drop everything. The CLEAN HEART FORUM has also taken off, and while it's exciting... it's another time commitment.

I want to thank each and every single one of you for touching my life.  I want to make it clear that I'm not leaving forever... but I need some time away, and I'm not sure for how long.  I wish I could say that I'll be back in 30 days... but this is not a fast... this is my life.  If you'd like to get a hold of me, please feel free to email me... I will get back to you as soon as I can.  I will also continue managing A CLEAN HEART FORUM, and will stop in here when I can, but won't make any promises as to when that will be.  If you're signed up to be notified of posts, then you'll know if and when I've shared.  This will be the same for the other blogs I have... SHMILY Time and A CLEAN HEART. 

Being a mom... especially a homeschool one... is a full time job, and I wish I knew how others do it and manage to put other things in.  Maybe it proves the bad manager of time I truly am... whatever the reason, I just know that I have a LOT of things to work on...

Thanks again for letting me be a part in your life, and for being a part in mine.  I will miss this more than you know... and more than I should.  I will try and let you know of any big changes in our lives... and if you ever see a motor home with "DANDELION SEEDS" across the outside... be sure to check it out... maybe it's our life-long dream being fulfilled.

May God fill your lives to overflowing,
Amy Verlennich