• Thursday, November 1, 2007 - Day One... Forgiveness
Heavenly Father,
There is so much going on in our life right now... and You know every detail... nothing surprises You. Before I begin on this wonderful journey of thanks and praise, I want to apologize for letting the things of the world blur my focus on You and Your precious gifts to me. I have been ungrateful. I have said, "Thank you for this, but..." so many times instead of just "thank You". I have made exceptions to the amount of thanks I've given You, as if it's something for me to withhold from You, the Creator of All things. I have been like a selfish child, desiring my way and focusing on my wants more than Yours for me.
Truth be told (and I know You already know this), I'm scared Lord. I'm just plain scared... it's hard to live in this world and not be "of it"... it's hard to go against what's easy or "normal"... and for someone who often is somewhere in the center of any event... it's even hard to stand out. Yes, Lord, I'm having a hard time standing out and lately I've questioned if I can. For what it seems You're calling me to, I've questioned if I've "got what it takes"... if I can support my husband in the way he will need... and if I can lead my children to where they must go. I know I can't do it... I just can't. You are the only One who can, and I know that's the way You want it. I know that You are calling me to let go of myself... my desires... my fears... and give myself up to You to mold me and create me, to work through me. All of this is so easy to write Lord, but I'm struggling to do this every day... every hour... every minute... every last second.
And so I ask You to help me, and I pray for Your will to become my focus... my desire... my passion. I pray to seek after You fervently. I pray to look forward and leave the past behind... and with it all my fears, hesitations, hopes and dreams that aren't of You. I let them go Lord... I let them go and focus on giving You the thanks and praise that You deserve and desire from me... someone so little in the scheme of things... but so important to You still.
May my life bring glory to You Lord... the next 22 days and beyond...
What a sweet prayer. It is so nice to see honesty! You have inspired me to say a prayer too. I will post it later after I have had time to take it to the Lord.
and a woman seeking the Lord's Will (daily), a wife (striv- ing to keep the romance alive), a "Smamma" (Step- mother) of one and a homeschooling mom of seven (I was never going to have child- ren), who starts every day over (after messing SOME thing up the day before), knowing God's grace is overflowing (just like my laundry), and so thankful He's blessed me more than I'll ever deserve.
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((hugs))
angela