In my "classic" over-my-head-ridiculous-ideas-considering-the-present- circumstances situation, I decided to clean out my kitchen cupboards.  Now, that alone is a task in itself... however, I didn't need to "just" organize the cupboards... I had to go through everything.  I could see how wonderful it would all be when it was done (as I have a tendency to do, which is what gets me into trouble to begin with), and with visions of beautiful cupboards dancing my head, I set out on completely destroying the very place where most activity occurs in my home… and where complete chaos now runs rampant.

Tonight, I finally had to just to get out of the kitchen, as I'd become so overwhelmed I wanted to cry.  I've been working on that project for days (not consistently of course because life still goes on to some extent… the kids sat on the floor with their plates on the chairs for example) and I've had it.  I wish I could go back a few days and decide NOT to start something I thought would be done in a day.  Instead, I'm left with a mess that HAS to be taken care of (since burning the house down isn't an option).

There is NOTHING about my kitchen that is peaceful right now.  A part of me has to chuckle however (you know, the crazy insane kind of laugh?) at how I could start something so ridiculous when there are so many other things needing attention first (laundry, my bedroom, oh… yeah, and then there's school that was supposed to resume tomorrow… ha ha HA.  I would just like to find somewhere to go for awhile… take the kids out of the disaster and… stay for a few hours… (or weeks) but, the reality of that is simple… it would just be waiting for me to deal with when I got back. 

Just like the matters of your heart... what's in your heart that needs to be taken care of?

With the new year in "full swing" and I take a look at my kitchen, I can't help but think about my heart.  There are a few too many projects that have been started and left unfinished.  They haven't gone away and they're still sitting there waiting for me to take care of.  Some unforgiveness here, a little bitterness there, and I spot some selfishness hiding out in the corner under the anxiety.  The more I think about it, the more my kitchen doesn't look so bad… or so overwhelming.

So I guess it's time to do a little cleaning out of my "inner cupboards".

It's time…  your heart is more important than anything else… the rest will fall into place… but in order to have peace… TRUE peace in things that will last, you must come to Me… the Beginning and the End.  I will give you peace… I will restore order in your heart… and you will never be the same… ever.

Still Seeking,
Amy

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