Tuesday, February 19, 2008 - Fret Not Thyself...
Cameron is on the mend. He is still stuffed up, but our weeklong bout with the flu is passed.
I can tell that he is starting to feel better because yesterday was a very trying day. It was just a plain exhausting day of disobedience, defiance, tears, correction, more tears... It was like the cycle in Judges. Except for years of peace and prosperity, we would have 10 or 20 minutes. EXHAUSTING.
These are the times I start question my parenting ability. These are the times I that I worry that my son will be one of those that never make a personal commitment and when he is older will chose his way over God. And that makes me want to worry. I sometimes feel that I only have this one chance because he is an only child. There are no guinea pig children to try and mess up and oh well, start over again.
I know that those with more than one child don't feel as if they have more than one chance to get it right. You want that for each child.
We have family devotions almost every morning. With the sickness that plagued us last week, we didn't get to it even once. So yesterday was the first day of devotions in over a week. And it was good stuff. LOL
We have a book that we read from called, "Little Visits With God." It is an older book, maybe printed in the 1950's. I remember reading it with my Mom as a little girl. They have a little story centered around a Bible verse and additional scripture reading. It is usually only a few verses so I have Cameron read as much as he can from his own Bible. He actually reads better from the Bible than his phonics book. Go figure.
Yesterday's scripture was Psalm 37:1-5
1) Fret not thyself because of evildoers, neither be thou envious against the workers of iniquity.
2) For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb.
3) Trust in the LORD, and do good: so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.
4) Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
5) Commit thy way unto the LORD: trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.
He actually knew what it meant to fret. We talked about how we can commit ourselves to the Lord. I'm trying to start have him tell me something he can see from the scriptures that we are reading. Right now it is more like a narration. But then I'll say what I am getting from the scripture passage. We ended up reading those 5 verses a few times. By the end of that reading he wanted to mark it so that he could look at it again!!!
(And then we had a horrible rotten day)
Why I even thought of this was because, I was starting to fret, not trusting in the Lord, not delighting in Him and this child that He gave me, not believing that He will give me the desires of my heart. Not committing my way to Him.
I think the Lord brought this to mind this morning as I was sitting here praying that today was not a repeat of yesterday. I need to commit my way to Him. I need to hold Cameron in prayer, daily. I need to pray for myself as a mother. I need to stop and seek His will. I need to trust Him. I don't have the ability to be this little boy's mother. That is why I need HIM so much. I need to delight myself in the LORD and not my own parenting skills.
Comments
Tuesday, February 19, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by MoreLittleWilsons
You got it, now you just need to live it.
I've been there. I had one who was with God from day one, and the next who went through an "I hate God" stage, and definitely hated church.. And now he's completely submitted to God and has said he's ready to read scripture from the Bimah (pulpit), and I don't think it'll be long before he decided to be Bar Mitzvah'd too - that means publicly declaring that you're a Son of the Commandments.
Everytime that worry comes up, remind yourself to trust God.. and yes, you have to be the parent, but being the parent doesn't mean being perfect, it means you just keep working at it!
Tuesday, February 19, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Heather
Bless you, sweet friend. I hope the rest of your week goes well and that you fret not as you trust in Him.
Heather S.
Thursday, February 21, 2008 - Untitled Comment
Posted by hugs4Him
I'm so sorry he's been sick, & glad he's on the mend. I know those concerns... sounds like you're doing a wonderful job.
