Well it's back to school for all those who choose the "normal" course so I thought I'd better start getting into routine - but that decision didn't get much further than my head  My parents have been away to Spring Harvest for the last week and as they only live a few doors down we've all missed them to be honest so we ended up there for the day - although my sister did come over and we did our family prayer time for the week so it wasn't a wasted day! We have managed 3 weeks so far which is good, we're all going to keep our own journal recording what we want and how God has worked in our lives through this prayer time etc so it will be good to look back on.

I admit my husband and I are really struggling at the moment with the whole God/chrsitianity/church thing. I have walked with God all my life and I don't really know what it is like to be without Him but sometimes I wonder why I don't seem to see Him working in all His power, we all struggle in my family and most people I know to be honest and I know there is way we can walk with Him and be close to Him but I'm struggling to see it worked out in my own life if that makes sense and then I feel like I'm being a bad example to my children! Hopefully this committed prayertime will start to make a difference, I know some of it is my own fault I don't always read His word as much as I should etc but it is very difficult with 3 young children and I know I sometimes make the wrong decisions and listen to music instead of putting the bible tapes I've got on or choose to listen to the wrong music but it is hard sometimes to keep on keeping on especially when we don't see the results!

On a positive note we're enjoying this good weather the children are having fun playing in the dirt outside! We've actually planted some seeds - first time ever (apart from cress) and they are starting to grow - though I've just found out my brocoli is growing too quick (and i was so proud)  my mini cucumber's look good though and it's all educational so I'm quite happy!