Mar. 18, 2006 - Confidence?
How can I be confidant and yet not at the same time? I mean I second guess myself on most everything, except the big stuff.
I don't doubt that Jesus is my Savior.
I don't worry that I shouldn't be homeschooling.
I never think I married the wrong man.
But on the little daily things in life I lack any confidence. I second guess my decisions, and if I am shown a different way to do something, my first response is that I have been doing it wrong. After a bit of thought I can ususally logically figure if I am really wrong or not, but I sometimes feel like a dog cowering.
I don't want to live this way. I want to live my life confidantly. And even if I am wrong, I want to correct my course and move on. But without any of the weird feelings that I usually get.
So this week I am going to practice. If I think I may be wrong about something, I will immediately turn to Jesus in prayer. If I am wrong I will repent, correct my course and then praise Him for showing me. Instead of wallowing in failure, I will rejoice in the goodness of Jesus. That should work, don't you think?
