Feb. 3, 2008
AWP
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AWP- is my new code. It stands for Action With Purpose. Here is what I am going through today...well not just today...perhaps it is ongoing. I confessed not long ago that I have a hard time scheduling my weeks. Frankly it stresses me out. Mostly because I have a hard time sticking to a schedule. But, when I do make a schedule I accomplish so much more, than those days or weeks when I don't have one to follow. I have lupus. Lupus is disgusting and living with it is not fun. But today I was praying to God about my schedule...again. He probably gets sick of hearing me whine. Maybe not. Well AWP popped into my brain. I have been feeling so yucky lately...with dark circles under the eyes etc...some discouragement and depression, even though I hate to admit the depression, because it makes me feel weak. It also makes me think that if I just trusted God more I wouldn't feel depressed...anyway...I think the depression is a side benefit of feeling tired. Anywho...I had a great day yesterday...up until I couldn't fall asleep last night, cause I felt so good about the day. I want more and more and more of those days. SO I printed out my schedule for the week and decided to include a few spots in it for AWP. I have so many things that I want to accomplish. But when I don't do that schedule I am tempted to give in to the tiredness. There is a fine line between taking care of yourself and letting the disease get the best of you. ie-just letting the day come and go doing what I feel like doing, instead of getting things totally done. My husband and I get so much accomplished when we meet for the week and plan things out...so on the first day of the week on Sunday we will Lord willing have a planning session. Nothing too long, short sweet and simple. Then during the week my AWP time will be based on whatever goals we have set for the week. Here are the things that are on my schedule. Church Activities Family Time Homeschool Excercise Work- yes I have to work to help earn money for us to live Domestics- you know the chores yuck! Leisure time Blogging and working on my website AWP- Action with Purpose Finances Service to the Community including my brothers and sisters in Christ. While I was making my schedule I was having serious doubts about my ability to do these things. I pray and pray that God is with me and helps me every single hour of my day. :) |
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