This is more of a religious eye opener for me, so for those that aren't into reading about religious stuff feel free to not read this, in no way am I posting this to push it upon anyone else. Just wanted to share something that happened over the weekend to help me in my walk with the Lord.

Saturday evening we were around the picnic table at the campsite, eating then playing around. Ok dh and ds were playing around...lol. I was snapping pics of them off and on as well. Then ds was looking around for some rocks at the campsite. Came to a point where he was being negative and saying that he couldn't do this or that. That it wouldn't work. What have you, just being negative in general. I was being calm and trying to calm him down somewhat before a blow out that he can have at times. So I had him sort of in my lap. Just wanting him to relax, not anything more then that.

That of course started him getting mad, pinching me what have you. Well in a campsite you have close neighbors and I have no desire to have anyone think we are mean to our son. YK how things like that can happen.

Dh came to our side of the table to talk to ds and ds SLAPPED dh across the face. It was the worst thing i've ever seen and he's NEVER done anything like that to dh ever. Its always been towards me or my mother.

Anyway I just told dh to take ds for a drive and talk with him. Because our ds loves to scream in your face and get really loud, to the point that it will sound like you are harming him when you aren't at all, or even touching him.

We are learning indeed.

I grabbed my bible that I happened to pack(don't normally do that) and needed to just read and try to look for answers. As I'm at a loss and really want to raise my son to be respectful to all people. He's very defiant at times and backtalks. He will argue with you. I've said to him not to back talk, and explained what I meant, and he will automatically say "I wasn't." So its a process I'm trying to get him to understand what backtalk or mouthy *is*. He just says he's not doing that. And his tone of voice is snotty when he says so.

I'm still trying to learn.

Anyway as I was looking through the bible and readin here or there, I came across this....

I have a Women's Devotional Bible that was given to me by a lady at church.

In one of the readings they provide it was this..

Like the flashlight, you were designed to shine; but you can never shine with your own power. The Hold Spirit provides the power to produce the light. And once you shine as you were intended to shine, you will never be useless.

Talk about an eye opener for myself.

It was about the Holy Spirit. just a small section picked out to read one day, of devotionals. The whole part was something I needed to read.

Now I need to learn to raise my son in a Godly way. if anyone knows of anything to do teaching wise, for my almost 9 yr old son. Please feel free to let me know. He needs something and I need to be able to do it with him. In hopes that he can fight the negativity/anger that takes him over and makes him think he can not control it at all.