I'm sorry for breaking all the promises I wasn't around to keep..To the people dumb enough to read my blog: I'm an emotional mess right now. Sorry. This is basically a sappy, dorky entry and the whole point of a blog is NOT to entertain other people...I mean, when you read the definition of "weblog" when the whole blog shebang started. SO. Your options are. Read the entry..and resist the urge to laugh, remember, MY blog, MY life, you chose to read on anyway, I told you it was sappy. OR you can just exit now. SO, the little red button with the X through it, in the upper right hand corner of your screen. Click it! It's fun. Today basically sucks. Our AMAZING...Dog Dakota had to be put to sleep today. But, He sure would look handsome next to Jesus with a halo over his head
His nice golden coat, his eyes full of joy, and his willingness to please. This dog has NO idea how much he's missed. My sister just stopped crying, I'm still crying...
Dakota- You were the BEST dog in the whole wide world! I remember when we got you, I remember walking into the big kennel they had you in and playing around with your brothers and sisters. I remember picking up your sister, a cute little fluffy black puppy and saying "I want her!" I remember Mom and Dad saying that they already picked you out.. I remember Mom telling us that your Mommy got hit by a car.. I remember the ride home, holding you in my arms practically the whole time! I remember telling mom and dad that we should name you Butter[sorry about that!], thank heaven they said no. I remember the house we used to live in, your first home, I remember how you were such a tiny little puppy and your eyes seemed to bug out of your head, I remember how you used to LAUNCH yourself off the dock at the lake, and you would play fetch until everyone's arms hurt...
I remember sneaking you into my bed after everyone else was a sleep.
I remember last summer when Daddy played fetch with you so long you fell over and we thought he killed you..
I can't remember life without you, Dakota, you have NO idea how much I miss you right now.. You were the best dog in the whole wide world, and I'm glad we didn't get your sister, and I'm glad you have the name you have.
Your last few week's were painful for you...
and you tried so hard to make us happy..and you did! I wish we could have done something different, so that you didn't have to suffer and you could still be with us.. I found this, Buddy, and it made me think of you.
Tribute To A Best Friend Sunlight streams through window pane Author Unknown.
  
I love you Buddy, I will alway remember you. You will always have a place in my heart.
-Kayla. Love.So Basically. I'm turning this into my writing blog. If I write something. It'll be up here. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. Love. is when you want someone to be happy, no matter what, wether it's with you or not, love is when just being together is enough and you treasure every moment, love is when your heart breaks everytime the person your in love with has a bad day, get's their feelings hurt, or just anything to make them anything but happy. Love is complicated, it's not easy it's not simple it is the hardest thing I've ever been through. But it's worth it. Love is when your in the deepest pain possible, and when the one you love is upset, and you do all you can to make their day better... Love is worth every tear, love is when you wipe away every tear. Love is when that special someone, may not feel the same about you....and they do everything to break you, and everything to destroy the very core of your being. and you say "i still love you" and you'd take them back in a heart beat. Love is forgiveness. Love is always being sorry, that your not good enough, that you don't try hard enough, that your not worthy enough. Love is when your not good enough for someone. But you try till it hurts to be good enough, even though you know you never will be. Love is?A Million Fights Couldn't Make Me Hate You...I love Secondhand Serenade. Their music...is...so..cute :D SO. I'm mono free. chyeahh. which means I should be back at swimteam next week *crosses fingers* I have a cold right now. Third one in about 5 weeks. EW. The bad thing about not having mono is I have to do the round robin for speech class, and I signed up for Individual Apologetics, where your given a question by the judges, you have 3 minutes to write a speech [up to seven minutes long] and then you have to give the speech. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. And it's not like I can just play sick for one day! Cause I have swimteam practice and then a swim meet on Saturday, and my grandparents are coming from out of state and they'll want to watch me. GAH! this is going to stink. I wonder if I could e-mail my speech teacher and tell her that I'm a chicken and am to afraid to do IA....yeah...maybe I'll try that. Eat Your Carrots. Love, Hawk Nelson. Oh! I mean Kayla ;] I have my Hawk Nelson green t-shirt on :D IT HAS A MONSTER ON THE BACKK. awesome. --kayla katastrophee.Mommy You Let Them Poke Me!that title. is something I actually said O.O I'm being tested for mono. Which means....*drum roll* BLOOD TESTS! oh yay. Have I mentioned that I HATE needles? And blood? [Yet I think it'd be awesome to be a tattoo artist O.O] So yesterday, the stabbed me in the arms, one time each. nasty. They couldn't get any blood to come out. So I'm freaking out. IN PAIN. As they move the needle around in my precious, fragile forearm. CRYING [yes, I am a big wimpy baby and I cried. Not alot, but I still cried] thinking "OH MY GOSH?! no blood is coming out? are you serious? OWWW, GAH! hurry?" I got excited, I thought I was amazing and like..bloodless or something. but I'm not =/ darn. that sure would be a story for the grandkids though wouldn't it?!!? So they couldn't get any blood so I had to get up early and go in this morning...after drinking a bunch of fluids last night. they didn't get any the first time [YES!!! They poked me more then once!] and it hurt! The nurse lady took the needle out [she wasn't as nice as the first lady though, but she wasn't mean or anything] and then they did the second time. I didn't even get a cool band-aids, a sticker, a pencil or anything! how UNcool. So yes. Stabbed 4 times. In 2 days. 3 times in one arm 1 in the other. I got awesome tattoo band-aids on right now though :D omg. Crush by David Archuleta is ADORABLE! so yep. Thats it. OOH! The nurse asked me yesterday if I had been craving anything lately and I'm like "Mountain dew" and she's like "is that new or on going" and I said... "on going" BUT SHE STILL WROTE IT DOWN! bahaha. I cracked up. Oh and they had to ask me "Are you a tobacco user" and I lost it. I had my head in my hands, I was laughing so hard! I'm like "No, I'm not" and she's like "I kinda thought you'd say that, but we have to ask anyone over 10" O.O I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TOBACCO WAS WHEN I WAS TEN. the world is sad. *sigh* anyway. My mom is bringing home chocolate ice cream xD seeeya laterr. `kayla katastrophee.Better Then I Ever Planned.Tiny girl with such a large heart, Know I'd be the one hurt, but loving from the start. Now I'm wondering where I went wrong, Pick me up, and please make me strong. -chorus- Better then they life I ever would have planned, or could pick. Can't give up control, can't let you win, dying all while trying to live, I deserve better then what he could ever give. Maybe it's not all just my fault. This didn't kill me, it just made me strong, He robbed me of everything. And I still love him. But I won't let him take, the person within. Give me the strength to go and move on. Cause I can do anything with you who makes me strong. Cannot give up just yet, stand by my side, or hold me in your arms, the battles can be trying so help me through the fight. -chorus- He. Took. Everything. I'm taking it back. All the screaming, the blaming and all the lies. I'm never coming back. And I always felt like I was never good enough. Truth is you just didn't earn my love. I'm done with all this now God has my heart. I should have let him have it from the start. I'm dumb enough to think I can do this all alone. You are my quiet place, your arms are my home. And, God, you can write my story, better then I ever planned. Better then the life I had planned and had picked. I've given upcontrol. God you win. Dying all while trying to live. I deserve nothing less then who God has picked. He can write my story better then I ever planned. Better then I ever planned.Okay, so like, there was a star.I officially win the worst blogger award. thankkz. Hah. "so there was like, this star, and it was like really bright, and you could like see it from my bedroom window in my old house" My friends crack me up. My muscles HURT... /still/ I swam 160 laps(2.5 miles) on Saturday, along with practice on Monday and Tuesday, Today is my first offcial day off. Thursday..erm..tomorrow o.O I have speech and debate as well as volunteering. And then practice on Friday and a meet on Saturday [and it's like an hour away..which means I have to get up in the morning.... e w w w] I've been doing good in school! h a h. I manage to somehow get no more then 3 problems wrong in a single math lesson! *claps* cheyeahh. I think it's because I've been putting headphone's in and tuning out everything else, and I get in my like, ZONE.[kachow] and I can focus. Yep. It's most definitely the music ;] SPEAKING OF MUSIC! I found like this amazing trick [it could be like so last year, but, I like to think I'm genius ;] Put your like hardest music first [does that even make sense?!?!] and then the music can gradually get softer. Like,...eh, Well I'll just show you. This is my sleep playlist. 1. Mouth Like A Magazine- Showbread [turning over in interrupted slumber...] 2. Reinventing Your Exit- UnderOATH 3. Face Down- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus [I can play this on guitar xD] 4. Fully Alive- Flyleaf 5. Something To Deny- This Beautiful Republic 6. All Around Me- Flyleaf 7. Since U Been Gone- Kelly Clarkson [LOL! Don't ask!....I'm telling you..just don't...haha] 8. Red Same- Flyleaf 9. Dance Inside- The All American Rejects 10. Jesus To The World- This Beautiful Republic [This is a BEAUTIFUL song!] 11. Crazy Mary- FM Static [Another good song] 12. Red Sam (Acoustic)- Flyleaf 13. Hey Now- FM Static [...please don't ask me what I like about you cause it's every little thing you do...AWWW!] 14. Cassie (Acoustic)- Flyleaf 15. All Around Me (Acoustic)- Flyleaf [hmm...I like Flyleaf alot don't I? :P] So, yep. I want from emo/screamo to acoustic. and it makes you all sleepy and want to go to bed and have sweet dreams xD My sister says the alphabet backwards. She can do it in fifteen seconds too! I can say it backwards, I'm getting better at it. My best friend count's sheep o.O I had something else to say. I forgot. Anyway, Sweet Dreams. Don't mess with the ANGRY CUPCAKES ;] `kayla katastrophee.If you wanna wake up you have to go to sleep. That doesn't make sense.*sigh* Obama won. This is going to stink. BUT! On the bright side. In the 2012 election I will be able to vote :D Soooo, I went to the A.M swim team practice on Wed. 5:30-6:30.. And I am not a morning person! I was up (4:40ish) and had already swam over a mile before the sun even came up! EW. But practice was good, we didn't do any drills or anything so, my strokes won't improve if I keep going, and I won't see my friends :( I did have a couple of friends that went to the morning practice. Wait, practically all of them were my friends! Bunny, Bunny's Sister, Muscles (NO! Those aren't their actual names ;) Those are their nicknames :D) and then this dude named Ethan. Who always seems to be glaring at me O.O...or maybe he's just unhappy. ANYWAY! So, Bunny (Who is a guy..lol) and his sister were talking about how Obama won, and Bunny's Sister is like "This is bad! He's going to raise taxes" and Bunny, being the crazy funny person he is says "It's okay, America sucks, we've lost all common sense" I lost it. I laughed so hard. I thought that was funny! And then Muscles and I walked into the pool at the same time he's like "Don't look so tired!" and I just screamed "SHUT UP!" So he picked on me all during practice. And then I asked him if he was on drugs. I didn't know people could have that much energy in the morning! It takes me about 15 minutes to open my eyes and another 20 minutes to get out of bed.... We have a swim meet on Saturday. And then swim-a-thon Next Saturday. Which will be fun, cause thats where you swim 200 laps. Why? So you can get your name on an [ugly] plaque on the wall...in nice tiny letters. Sounds fun! SIGN ME UP :D And then on Nov. 22 we have another meet. In the spring we start qualifying for zones, nationals and such. CHRISTMASSS! In 48 Days :DDD I can't wait! I already got my present, but...still! Last night (Thursday) We had possibly our last speech class :( So we were working on individual apologetics, We had to answer the question "What is truth?" We had 30 minutes to prepare, which is alot, cause normally you only get 3 minutes. SO, we didn't have very good resources, but, we managed. Anyway, I was just writing down what I thought and I went all logical and stuff. And our "boss" Audrey was like "Oh, that's good! Tear that out we'll use that as our second point" So basically I wrote down "We don't have a solid definition of truth, We have God, and we know God is the truth, but most people view him as a lie, We will never have something so solid and sure that it will be nationally accepted as truth. Truth is defined by a person's words, their life and their morals." So we had the most prepared speech, everyone just gave outlines and our speech teacher was like "Thats beautiful" I was so so proud of our team :D AND! I can play Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade on my guitar, I can sing it too. I should get a video.. but...who knows. Have an awesome weekend. `kayla katastrophe. p.s. I had three tests. In one day this week, I got a C+(+) (My mom said C+ I'm like C++ lol) and then two other C's, so all in all, I could do better, but I was proud, cause I didn't study. I like.. never study :PYour Hair Looks Like a Haystack. But I love it.I'm sick. I have no idea what I'm talking about. Ignore me. Edward loves Bella. Such a sweet book :] I love the Twilight series. The way Edward treats Bella is beautiful. She's his world, He'd die for her, He's a gentleman, His whole life revolves around Bella and her safety. And how could you not fall in love with someone he says something like “Sleep, my Bella. Dream happy dreams. Your are the only one who has ever touched my heart. It will always be yours. Sleep, my only love.” and "Look after my heart- I've left it with you" or “He called you pretty, that’s practically an insult the way you look tonight, you’re much more than beautiful.” *sigh* WHERE'S MY EDWARD CULLEN!? God, Send me someone like Edward...please. And thank you. So basically, this new template isn't the greatest. Only I know of it's flaws. But if you want to view comments you'll figure it out sooner or later. Hot chocolate anyone?! `kayla katastropheStop Staring. Your creeping me out.So. I have a baby sister. She's beautiful :] And I swear somehow she got her good looks from me(Hah! She's way more beautiful-er then me), I'm just trying to figure out how...but I'm going to stop. I have my first swim meet of the season on Saturday. GULP. Thank Heaven for music. I think that's the only thing that's keeping me from freaking out. That and the good ol' comforting bag of Cheese Puffs, which just so happen to stain my fingers orange -.- So I had to give a persuasive speech yesterday. YIKES!, or even cooler. YIKEZZZ. My topic was recycling.....I picked it (What was I thinking!) I pretty much bombed (For my mother who is reading this, that means I did bad ;)But, it's really hard to persuade teenager's to listen to music. How would it go? Me: LISTEN TO MUSIC Class: FINE WE WILL. That could be a good thing though ;] Course I would walk out thinking "DANG I'M PERSUASIVE" and find everyone whipping out their iPods.....the ones they were listening to /before/ my speech. I got a tag. I'll do it when I'm good and ready. So I thought I'd post the songs I've been listening to lately! My top 15 songs : (AHEM) NOTE: 15 is such a....a...a....small number. How does 17 work for you? So these are my top 17 songs of the moment. The Third Day ones are AMAZING you have to listen because Lacey Mosley sings in them xD YAYYY CLICK TO LISTEN!Joy Joy Joy :) I'm sitting in my chair dancing. O.O Good thing you can't see. Oh, and I've decided that I can't head bang to soft, acoustic music (I.E. Amy MacDonald and Joshua Radin who are on my playlist ;) And headbanging hurts after awhile.
ANYWAY. I was up early enough this morning to see the sunrise! Trust me, not by choice. I had to babysit. My brother is snuggly in the morning But here is the picture!
Thats cool xD I got the new Family Force 5 CD on.....erm..Wednesday! I feel kinda jipped though. Only eleven songs, of course their other cd I have was Diamond Edition so who knows. But it's awesome. It was hard just picking ONE cd...I mean COME ON! Just one? I should make a list of all the cd's I want. Nah. Anyway. I'm out. I'm going to volunteer later. Don't Stop Dancing. `Kayla TAGI'm just making this up as a go. Procrastination. Oh joy. OMG OMG OMG! I got a tag from10jellybeans!! YAYAYYYYY 1. 1 color that you'd like to be: Green, because green is fabulous :P 2. 2 bands you'd like to be in: FLYLEAF! cause..that's who I'm listening to.AAND The Devil Wears Prada! Cause..they need a girl in their band :P 3. 3 songs to describe your mood: Handlebars- Flobots (HAHA!), I'm so Sick- Flyleaf (o.O THE REMIX ROCKS!), I'd Rather Be With You- Joshua Radin (AWW!) 4. 4 Pet peeves: When one window or blind is opened more then the other one. When the radio is turned on to an abnormal number (I like mine on 5,10,15,20,25 and so on) When my little sisters jump around and scream about nothing. When I tell people that I'm homeschooled and they ask "What about socialization?"(My normal response is I HAVE FRIENDS!) or "Oh your so lucky!"(HAHA! NO I'M NOT!)and stuff like that. 5. 5 of your favorite bands: Flyleaf, UnderOATH, The Devil Wears Prada, Jonas Brothers and Family Force 5 (THAT WAS HARD!!!!) 6. 6 words you say the most: Fabulous!(HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!), Awesome, like yeah, goodness gracious, aand....hmm...what else....uhhh..OOH! WHATEVERR! :P 7. 7 favorite candy bars or type of candy: LAFFY TAFFY!, Chewy Spree's, Skittles, Runts, Gum, Nerds, Twizzlers 8. 8 things in your room (MISCELLANEOUS STUFF!): Magazines, Guitar, Amp, Purses, Earrings, Chargers for electronics, Library card, and gym bag. 9. People you'll send this too: BriahK, Redneck1,MJL,Nathaniel,Spartan777, and throughtheblack 10. 10 things you want to do before you die: Attend Flyleaf,Underoath,Family Force 5, The Devil Wears Prada, Children 18:3, Capital lights and Showbread concerts. Bunjee Jump. Get a lip ring(Even if it's fake! lol). Dye my hair pink. LIVE. Go to Paris. Go to London. Spend an entire day at the mall without tripping. Be a good role model. Fall in love.{ Last Page } { Page 1 of 5 } { Next Page } |
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