Days...

Weeks...

Months...

I'm not sure if I can pin-point just one thing that's been "bringing me down"...

I almost hesitate posting this - because if anyone does come and read this - they'll see...that's it's not a "susie-sunshine" post as I like to call them ---- journaling happy thoughts --- even when I don't really feel like sharing "happy thoughts" - it's not to bring anyone down - it's not to be negative - I call it - being a realist. --- We all have those days...

I remember reading a blog where someone criticized women who come and share their hearts when they've had a bad day --- they believed that we need to really come here and put all positive, glowing, happy thoughts - all the time...

That would be nice - and when I get to heaven and keep a blog there...PTL - I'll be able to do that.  Right now - I'm here on earth - where I am not perfect nor do I lead a perfect life.

Don't get me wrong - I do have plenty to be joyful about - and I am.  I know that I am a very blessed woman. 

I just happen to have some of "those days"...

It could be the overcast skies and no sunshine, the very long winter, hormones, my thyroid, menapause (yes, you can go through it before 40), extended family, trying to get through our homeschooling day - and everything else that comes along our way, and some days just feeling - BLAH. 

I know - they are all things - that I can do something about - some days - it's just overwhelming...

Some days - I just want to cry

Satan is roaming about - seeking whom he may devour --- and I know he is real

BUT

I know who will have the final victory

I know who holds tomorrow and holds my hand

and I pray - that I will get out of this "funk" - as my friend - Missy and I call it ...

and move along to brighter days of faith, hope and charity

I'm one for authenticity - if you haven't noticed after reading this post - I'm not going to wear a mask - and have you ask me - "How are you doing, Charity" - and just say - "fine" and go along...

Some days - I'm not just "fine"...

God is good and - He never promised me a rose garden

BUT

He did promise to never leave me nor forsake me

Praise His Name