Well, we did get a signed agreement, anyway. We still have to wait until the buyer's finances are confirmed, the inspection is done, AND the appraisal. Needless to say, we are still sort of holding our breath. But, hey, after a year and a half of waiting for our house to sell, this is the closest we've gotten. Hopefully, it will, indeed, work out.

We close on our new house July 18. So far, everything has gone smoothly on that end. We still need the appraisal done, but that is all. It is still rather overwhelming at times when I think of all I need to do. I'm not a good "planner." Once I have a plan, I do pretty well with staying on it, but I really struggle to put a plan together. I see the whole picture, and struggle to break it down into manageable parts. Even when I can finally do that, I struggle to prioritize and find myself focused on things that are not so important, instead of working on those things that are imperative.

Somehow, I have to start packing.... but not everything... because we do still have to live here for the next four weeks. Oh, and I need to finish buying homeschool curriculum..... make a transcript for each of my high school boys...... figure out what we will be needing in the way of appliances and other miscellaneous items at our new house..... keep this house from falling apart while waiting for everything to go through with our buyer's finances, etc. And all this while caring for my children who are much better at destruction than they are at keeping a house intact.

So... you know... it's really boring.... nothing to do.....   LOL!

The Lord has been gentle with me through this process..... I have struggled so much with trusting Him that everything is going to work out. Of course, it still isn't over, but so far, He has shown me that He is paying attention to all the details. I don't feel worthy of such attention.

I know some are shaking their heads and saying that I should know I can trust Him. Others are amazed that I have trusted Him as well as I have. I felt bad at times that I couldn't make myself not be anxious.... but after we got our signed agreement last week, it dawned on me that if I had trusted so well, I truly would've missed some things in the process.

I don't mean that it would be better that I not trust-- of course, trusting is always better! But, in the struggle, He sees how much I am longing to be wholly His and knows how much my heart yearns for peace and settledness. In working out this process, He has taken care of details that only He and I knew about. He is showing me how much He cares and in the process dismantling my fears. He is gently restoring me, and I know He loves me for desiring more of Him. This is all part of the process and I am thankful for it. I wish I could trust more, but I am so glad to see the many ways He works to build my trust. He truly is the Author and Perfector of my faith.