It is amazing how hard this can be sometimes and how lonely you can be. I have never really wrote of the hard times for fear of people that said I couldn't do homeschool, would read it. I have come to realize that if they do then I am human. God still has called me to homeschool our daughter and even if we struggle with a few hard times, it still gives God all the glory and I know that there is a bigger picture to the whole thing. I have also realized that not many mom's will talk about there struggles and when you do open up and say that you have had a hard time, which is what I did on a yahoo group that I belong to, that not one person wants to address that issue. I began to wonder am I the only one?? I know that I am not. I believe that many are called to homeschool and the fear of letting God down, never mind your child/ren, is why very few speak of those very hard days. In the end no matter how hard it is, I still want to homeschool and Faith still wants to be home with me. Even with having yet another hard week, we are still on track, we are not behind. I have learn where the evil, if that is the right thing to call this is coming from.
The TV, yes you are reading it right the TV.
When Faith broke her arm we went on as life goes on. After all it was only a broken arm. Yes, it may have taken me a few days to get that image of her arm out of my head, but it would heal. Then at her third week check-up, the news had turned for the worst, her arm had bowed and needed to be re-broke in the OR the next day. This was when I realized we had to slow her down. I have never been one for the TV or allowing very much. She isn't one for TV, but I guess when you can't ride your bike, wear your roller blades, play basketball, well you get the picture. Sitting in front of the TV becomes easy.
We started school two weeks ago, this being number two under our belt. We both have taken to R&S, like ducks in water. We are both enjoying it very much. I like having to teach her and be with her. Hey what else do I have to tend to?? We have hit a snag. The Mondays and Tuesdays have been good. Awana is Tuesday night, (a little bragging here, she is the first to earn a gem this year!! Mommy was so proud of her). Well last week she crashed Wednesday, I figured a nap Tuesday would help with that? Not so, next week I am going to try Wednesday nap?? When she is tired she can't control her emotions well. It is so very hard to spend hours at the table with a crying child. Why is she crying not about the work, or the work being to hard, but at the time and what show she is missing. 
I am frustrated. For a few reasons. The first one being that I have lots my outlet. With our Pastors being called to another church and school, our Bible School has stopped. I can still continue with my correspondence, but I've lost my Thursday night class with the "gang". Then my other class has switched times, and with Faith and I starting a new curriculum, I just wanted to take time getting us use to it before heading out to that class. Mommy outing number two gone. Add to that, that I don't have a lot of friends here, I have some good ones but they are in the same vote as me, that just picking up and going out isn't always easy.
This is why I feel so alone. I can't get over that I am fighting the TV as I am. Not being able to get her to the table tell 1pm or later. Not wanting to force her to the table. We have decided that we are now going to unplug all the TV. I know that it is going to be hard on everyone, but no one is happy living like this right now. Faith is doing so good with her school work when she isn't crying about a TV show. I have even agreed that I would tape her shows for her, Rescue Hero's, Caillou and John and Kate plus 8. 
She talks about being a mommy all the time, not to surprising she like this show. The surprising is that she doesn't play with dolls or barbies??
I am here putting out my dirty laundry and saying that the last two weeks have been hard. I have been struggling. In that I know that we will come out of this and everything will be alright. I know that I am not the only one that wants to sit at the table and cry. I don't want to give up, we love doing this. But the TV has to go, and that is when life will be as it once was.
My question is then this why don't we want to talk about the hard times. Is it because we are not of the "normal" crowd, that we are doing things outside of the box? Why is it that we don't want to say help, even better yet if some one calls out for help why is it that no one will answer. This is I think were I feel the saddest is that I don't feel that I have someone to call and say help. I have a wonderful cousin to give me an ear but she isn't homeschooling. I have one friend that like to give her help, but doesn't see the whole picture, she doesn't even have children. I have to find my help and my peace and I did that, with God. Going back and remembering why He called me to homeschool, what it is we are to be doing and why it is that we are doing this. This is where my strength is in knowing that even thought it has been hard that last two weeks I am still where God has called me and I need to keep on the road that I am on. Even if no one wants to talk about it.
Proverbs 22:6 (NKJV) Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.
Numbers 11:17 (NKJV) Then I will come down and talk with you there. I will take of the Spirit that is upon you and will put the same upon them; and they shall bear the burden of the people with you, that you may not bear it yourself alone.
Exodus 6:7 (NKJV) I will take you as My people, and I will be your God. Then you shall know that I am the LORD your God who brings you out from under the burdens of the Egyptians
Psalm 55:22 (NKJV) Cast your burden on the LORD,And He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.
Matthew 11:29-30 (NKJV) Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
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Sep. 20, 2008 - Your family story...
My dad's side... well my mom never got accepted and neither me for what I can see. Long story there too. So I am very happy to have an in-law family who is loving and caring!