Have you ever felt like God was preparing you for a test or a "life's lesson?" I am really feeling this way! For some reason I just feel like I am being molded for what is to come. What bother's me is I do not know if I am ready for what he has in store.

This is why I'm feeling tested..... Friday I took Bubbie19mnths in for his 18mnth check up, dh and I had made a list of questions that we had for our pediatrician. There were things that Bubbie was not doing and things he does that we just did not understand. After an hour of discussion with the doctor, he told me that he thinks that Bubbie has tendency's of Autisim. WOW. What is a "God Moment" is that the night before I could not sleep, the word autisim kept coming to my mind so I got up went to the computer and looked and read, yep there was a list of charactieristics of Bubbie. Looking back I know God was preparing me for what was to be spoken Friday. Then, on top of "autisim" Dr. heard a strong heart murmer for the first time. I know that heart murmmers can be no big deal,  my Boo6 has one and she is just fine. Though, Bubbies is strong in sound. So, this Friday (5-19) we go back to the dr.,if he hears it and it is strong in sound then we will go for an ekg and a sono of his heart. Oh, I have NEVER been a woman complete trust, I seem to always hold on enough to feel in control. I'm really struggling today, I am angry, frustrated and even bitter.  My prayer is that I can be the best mommy that Bubbie needs.

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Posted by takingthechallenge

You, your son, and your family are in our prayers. (((HUGS)))! You're not alone. We have a son with Aspberger's and there are several other families at HSB who have kids with special needs. HSB also offers a e-newsletter for families homeschooling kids with special needs.
God will be faithful and see you through!! More (((HUGS)))!

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Posted by DandelionSeeds

Praying for you... I am going thru a "testing" myself...

Just stopping by to wish you a Happy Mother's Day on Sunday! May you find true joy in your children and the blessing of motherhood.

Praise God for allowing us such a wonderful, life changing experience as raising His children!

In Him,
Amy

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Posted by giggles3

I am praying for you and your family, that is hard, but the Lord is in control and is there.
I hope and pray that the tests go well and that they can find what they are looking for. I pray that The Lord will give you strength and wisdom in this time.
He is holding that little guy in His hands.
Do not be discouraged my friend keep looking up.

And on another note it is nice to see you blogging again. Let us know what happens.

Many Blessings,
Christina

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Posted by kate3boys

Anyone of us can account for the feeling of being in the Refiner's fire. God only puts us there to create an even more precious gem. Find comfort in the test. It means that God has a plan, you are a part of it, and He has not forsaken you. If you did not feel stressed, I would be concerned at that point.

It is a difficult path to walk. Even scary at times. But, God is walking with you each day. Lean on Him. He will give you peace.

I wish I could share my testimony concerning my walk and my son, but it truly would take too long. Just know, it will be ok! You will be able to meet the needs of your son. He is God's special child. God does not make mistakes and in what ever way God needs to use your son, your son will be a blessing to many!

He will be blessed and be a blessing!

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Posted by jammyphoto

I am praying for you! For your strenghth and complete trust in God. Things are not always what they seem. No matter what the outcome, God is in this and he will direct your path.

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Posted by rachelle

Yes, I do feel like God prepares us for the future. He supplies all of our needs, including our emotional ones. From the moment I found out I was pregnant with Gabriel I had a very clear sense that this pregnancy and baby would be different...and it was. We had so many scares throughout my pregnancy and ended up with a surgical delivery. Gabe was born with one normal kidney and one multicystic dysplastic kidney. His kidney is checked every two months...so far they don't think he will need a nephrectomy (removal of a kidney), but we aren't totally out of the woods yet.

However, he is thriving (after losing weight for a month after birth) and I truly believe God's hand is on him. I can honestly say that God has given me everything I needed...even when we weren't sure if he would live (if both kidneys had been affected he would have died). He began preparing me months before we knew that there was a problem.

I'll be praying for you and your family.

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