Nov. 28, 2006 - Oh, that they'd long for Jesus!
Discovered today how much my oldest is missing.
I found an IM box open that he'd been using on my computer to chat with his dearest friend, whom he's known since birth, and was appauled at what I saw. Evidently, the two teenage boys were trying to "out do" one another in a gross-out contest...and I think my son...umm...er...I guess..."won." 
It was disgusting, and vile, borderline p*rn*graph*c...no, wait...it was definitlely p*rn*graph*c. So much so that it actually made me want to wretch. In fact, I spent several minutes over the trash can, just in case. 
He claims of course, that he heard it from kids in the neighborhood, because (and I quote) "that's what teenage boys talk about." Since the peer response was "GROSS!" he decided it must be the sickest thing to share in a "gross-out" contest. 
...and my heart just ached for him. 
Did he not sense the Lord prompting him to protect his friend and himself, and refrain from sharing such nonsensical filth?? 
He claims to have a saving faith in Christ...where was He while my ds was typing?
Is his spirit just not sensitive to the Holy Spirit enough to know when his door is being "knocked upon?" 
Why not?
*sigh*
I love him so much...and know God has set him apart for tremendous things. But today, my prayer for him is to just FEEL God in there somewhere...and long for more of Him.
Tonight, when he got home from work, he did come and say, "I think I just got carried away. It was stupid and immature, and I won't do it again."
The one word I wanted him to admit to,....he couldn't say...and that was...the "S" word....."sin."
Lord, what an amazing child you've placed in my care. My heart wants to explode when I begin to sense your awesome and wonderful love for him. Please, give him a tenderness that only You can give. Draw him so closely to you, that he never wants to wander. Use me or move me...so that Your will can be made complete in his sweet young life. Save him from himself, and bind op the evil one who desires to devour and reek havoc in this little life. Bind him in the name and through the blood of our Lord, Jesus Christ, and equip this child with wisdom beyond his years, and passion for holiness that can only come from genuinely knowing and loving....You.
Amen
Comments
Nov. 29, 2006 - Praying...
Posted by Kristina
Lisa, I love it that you are so transparent in your love for your kids. I am praying for their hearts and yours as well! I know God is using you and your family in a mighty way and I am so thankful that I can read about your stories.
PS - what color are you in?? Just checkin'!
Nov. 30, 2006 - Hey Smarty pants! LOL!
Posted by Fiarstar
For your information...I'm in the pink until noon daily, and then I'm sorta floating until abot 4pm when I can get into the gold. LOL! ;o)
You're so funny! Thanks for checking!
Love ya,
Lisa
