Feb. 27, 2007 - Happy Birthday Autumn!
I have never been good at journalling. Even when I was growing up, I was not good. I'm not good at keeping a pray journal either. But tonight, I've found my way back. Thanks to everyone for the helpful advice on potty training. I've stopped trying, but I will resume soon and will use some of the wonderful ideas that I received.
We've had another birthday in our house. Our daughter (who is the oldest) has just turned eight (Feb.24). It was a day filled with different emotions. I was frustrated with everyone for the lack of respect shown to me and others in the house and for the lack of care displayed in how we maintain our belongings. I was frustrated--very very frustrated .
I was also excited that I have been blessed witht the opportunity to see her grow, develop and mature. I remember reading to her as a baby. I'd rock her in the rocker, and read to her and hold her in my arms while I prayed. I mention that because she's the only one to get that kind of treatment. After her, I began to have children quickly, so mommy's lap was always full and mommy was always busy. Everyone gets mommy time, but it is not the same.
I rememeber all the cool classes that I enrolled her in. My favorite was Gymboree. She's the only one who got that. Those places are way too expensive. I remember shopping for clothes when there was just one. I remember when she cut her hair. She doesn't remember that, but she has never tried it again. I remember the joy of nursing her. I remember when my heart was broken  because I thought she loved my husband more than me! ( I know that is just silly)! But I remember these details.
She's our first child. We have pictures galore of her! I have great memories. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to go back to having one child, but it was nice remembering what life was like with just her. I thought I was tired and alone! Wow, how time can change your perspective (especially since we are expecting #6).
God has blessed my family with a loving, kind, little girl who is very sensitive to the things of God. My desire is that I train her (with all my faults) to be the young lady God has designed her to be. I don't want to expect too much or be too harsh. I want her to look back on her childhood and think fondly of her mother. My prayer for her is that she'd live holy, stand firm on her beliefs, follow the voice of the Lord and not follow anothers voice, make wise decisions, pick godly friends, love the Lord with her whole heart, and have long life in good health.
Sometimes my mind is clouded. As moms, we spend a lot of time correcting, redirecting and disciplining. Sometimes this makes us not remember or reflect on the blessing. Through the training, through the correcting, through the disciplining, Lord let me not forget Psalm 127:3. Children are a gift from the Lord; the fruit of your womb is a reward! What a great gift to have--children. I hope that love will be how I deal with my children. Especially since (no matter what) that is how God deals with me!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday Big Girl!!
Love,
Mommy
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