It looks like the Lord has decided to pour out a blessing upon our family.   I have gotten positive results on hpt (home pregnancy test) for the last few days.  (yes, I am one of thoes compulsive hpt takers...)

.  The first positive test was one I took very late at night.  I knew that it was under the counter and was trying to wait and be good and not take it until time.  When I saw that light little second line I had to just come in the living room, and get on my knees, and thank the Lord over and over.  Now the last two mornings, I have repeated the test.  I love seeing thoes wonderful double lines.

My faith hasnt been what it should in this area. I have been struggling with this.  I had my tubal reversal surgery almost a year ago.  I went on to have at least one but possibly two early miscarriages.  Now, its been months since we have seen anything positive.  I was fearing that possibly I would never have my womb blessed again.  Why do I have such little faith at times?  The Lord knows what we need and wants to bless us, and has perfect timing. 

This is a trying time for our family.  We have custody of a sweet boy that is now over  a year old.  As far as he knows, we are Momma and Daddy.  He has been in our home since he was 3 months old.  We have a court date drawing near where his birth mom is going to request getting him back.  I wont go into all of the details, but please please be in prayer about this.  I am asking the Lord to protect this little boy.  I love him as my own.  He has 2 brothers and 2 sisters here who love him so much.  I know the Lord loves him even more than we are able, and will do what is best for our family, and this sweet baby. 

All of this, along with not being able to conceive, has been heavy on my heart.  It blesses me because my children are so faithful to pray about these two things specifically.  We havent told them about the new baby on the way.  We decieded to wait a week, or so, when things are safer.  They were so upset with the first miscarriage, and now with the possibilty of loosing their little brother it has been difficult. 

I have given the Lord control in these areas of my life and don't want to ever take it back. I will never take the blessings of the Lord for granted.  No matter if  they arrive through my womb or another way, I will take as many as he sees fit to bless us with.  My husband and I share the same heart in this matter. 

Yesterday on our front porch I told my husband that we were expecting.  He got tears in his eyes and we both got on our knees right there and thanked the Lord.  We had lots of little nosy eyes peeking out the windows too!! Wont they be thrilled when they find out!!